Am I just convenient for him?

So me and my friends with benefits I’ve ghosted a couple of times because at first he said not to catch feelings but I did so I tried separating myself from him. But he always came back. So me being dumb go back. I finally confessed he said for me not to first him. But it’s like now that he knows I have feelings for him he’ll text me less and less once in the AM then at night asking if I ghosted him. I get it he’s busy all day. But I mean…so am I. But I still text him. He’ll say things like he can see us being a power couple. Or if I ghosted him and came back he’ll be like I was going to take you to my families bbq but you ghosted me. And he’ll take me as a friend. He says he dosent want a relationship because he’s barley getting his life on track… but it really feels like he’s just saying all the things I wanna hear. Like he’ll give me attention then go completely quiet. He says he’s just working it he’s busy because he has a lot on his plate. But it’s like I wanna be feminine I wanna be girly. I work a lot and usually have to take charge at work but with him I just wanna be feminine but it’s so hard when one minute he’s giving me attention then the next he’s just not talking to me. He’ll call me bro, he’ll call me homie but the minute I call him that he gets all upset. I’m kinda just tired… of getting hurt and feeling like I’m overthinking. He says he likes me, he says he can see us together he says he wants to go out with me but he’s just busy… it’s been 6 months. Am I asking for too much? We still hook up on the weekend here and there but I’m kinda just tired…if it all.

Am I just convenient for him?
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