When did you felt like you won but lost as well?

When I got an offer from a publication company. They were impressed by my essay in the government writing competition. I visited their site and the publication rates are really expensive, if I want to publish globally. I know I finally reached my destination for one of my passion in time (before 14th birthday) but I feel like a looser as well because I know my parents won't agree.

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I passed the interview. They are pleased by my work. They are offering for publishing now! The offer I mentioned before was about interview. My dad received an email with a load of compliments for my writing and link for publishing. He is okay to pay the publication rates! Guys I am going to be a writer soon! It all happened so soon. Be ready to see me as a writer!

It started from mytakes and wattpad and now it will reach to real paperback books.
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I really won this time. Now I feel the taste of achievement.
When did you felt like you won but lost as well?
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