Am I a loser? should I be doing more?

[Anonymous]

I moved 18 hours away from home to finish school. I was a full time student at a community college and I worked part time.. (I’m currently 23)

I had moved on campus in 2019 and I had a lot of plans but covid happened. I was forced to leave campus due to the pandemic.. I wanted to work etc..

after a few months I stayed with my dad while finishing the semester. I had 5 classes..

it bothered my step mom that I wasn’t working.. she always makes me feel like I’m not doing enough. Her daughter is doing more than me and I’m 3 years older

i feel like a bum..

Am I overthinking or do I need to do more?

[JUST1NC]

Nah your gud, how much can you really do in a pandemic

[Asker]

Exactly lol

I’m also at risk because I have asthma.

Her feelings towards me makes me feel bad tho

[JUST1NC]

Eh she's a step mom and clearly has favoritism but no you are gud

[Anonymous]

She's comparing you to her daughter.

[Asker]

I agree, she never said it verbally but she does put her daughter to the standard.

I know I’m not a “bum/loser” but they make me feel like that. I’ve always had a job while being a student. .. I also deal with mental health issues like anxiety and depression.

Having a job did make me drop some classes.. but since I’m so close I just want to focus on school.

When I was staying with her and my father I did chores and cooked dinner once a week so.. I don't know. I hated the feeling of being there

[Opinion Owner]

You're not a bum. You still staying with your dad or you move out?

[Asker]

I was staying on campus but now I stay with my aunt

I graduate next spring

[Anonymous]

Fuck life have some me time

[Asker]

I’m down, I’m so over life. I have several panic attacks

[Opinion Owner]

The thing which is coming for you
You can't control it
So be redy to manage the situation
And stop thinking about others
Be what you want to be
Evaluate yourself dont let anyone to tell you or judge you