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Didn't think girls like that still existed. Viking women! All wife material to me.
Well, I'm cool with feminine shopping girls existing if I offended the ladies out there with what I think is an awesome woman. I'm just saying they're not my type. I'm also the ultimate meat head, by the way! I like to bash things with my head! I am the dumbest guy on this site and proud of it!
You're a married man. Have some respect for your wife.
@btbc92 My wife is like this, in spirit. Her sport is ballet but she is tough as any guy with her sport. She might not be a viking woman but she is tough as nails in her own way.
@btbc92 She's someone where, if our building erupts on fire, I am confident if I die that our children are in capable hands. She is a sporty type of woman and that's a big part of our compatibility.
I used to do ballet. I have read your replies in other posts besides this one. You have no respect for your wife by speaking the things you say as if you are single. It has nothing to do with being a vick8ing. It is about who she is in spirit as her own person. And the fact you have to have something posted that is restricted tells me where your mind actually is. All the more reason why I said to respect your wife.
@btbc92 And you have no husband and are a complete judgmental loser taking your socially pathetic loser frustrations on people like me. You're a female incel. Get a life!
Ballet is not a sport. It is not a competition. It is a dance that is an expression of self, and it requires a lot of technique traditionally, discipline and concentration. It can be expressed both physically as well as spiritually. Giving each dance form of the human emotion. She is tough because she has to be. Because men today aren't looking to protect her. A woman is forced to protect herself. Japanese are not like the Vikings at all. I have studied ancient history. What it is is that they learn to be gentle, but have developed themselves as the Samurai. Unlike Vikings who were wild. the Samurai learned to master the mind and understood the spiritual matters of the physical world. It is not a matter of sport. This is why Ballet has its own distinct feel to it, as does Chinese handkerchief and fan dances and the traditional Bon Odori. It is presented as elegance of the soul. Depending on what the user of the dance chooses to express.
@btbc92 I mean it! You need some friends? What's wrong with you? I showed that video above with my wife the first time I discovered it and she laughed! Did someone abuse you when you're young? I don't have the patience all the time to discover what makes people so cruel like you, so I hope you'll forgive my impatience.
I wouldn't have a husband like you who speaks so distastefully and dishonorably. I am not an incel. I am celibate by choice. To avoid men like yourself who hide behind women like your wife and myself to hide your insecurities while you still never changed at all. You should be "blessed" you have a wife who tolerates you. I personally wouldn't.
You're the one who's cruel. She only laughs because Japanese women are taught to tolerate that from men as hypersexual. It sounds like to me you really do not know anything about Japanese culture. I have friends and people who love me. It is guys like you I avoid. I can tell, that is not loved for your wife. And for you to say the judgmental, nasty, and degrading things you do and say as a man would definitely discourage me from being with anyone. You calling me a loser for having no husband tells me a lot about you that you without your wife was not a likable or desirable man. It tells me a lot about your marriage, and how and why you picked her. Because despite all of your flaws, SHE STILL PICKED YOU. Or are you that out of touch with your reality?
@btbc92 What a judgmental and simple-minded one you are. I got someone lecturing me on Japanese mindsets who never came from Japan, and I know you're doing it because you're an evil person who follows my shared fears and insecurities being only half-Japanese here like a stalker and you're trying to dig at my biggest insecurities. I will not cave in to you, demon girl! :-DI love my wife more than anything you evil demon. But you'll never understand what love of a sort that has a deep sense of honesty to it because you probably spent a whole life without loving or being loved that way!
I ain't wicked like you. I know love isn't speaking about women like that. And I also know a Japanese woman just leaving her husband would be dishonorable. I have Japanese friends and penpals and Japanese ways concerning traditions are similar to Christian values. So no, you talk a lot of crap for somebody so secure and solidified in your marriage. I have more respect for your wife tolerating how you choose to speak to others who aren't your wife, than for you who have and so no respect for others. You're dishonorable. And I wouldn't for the life of me understand who any of her family would have let her marry to you. But she is a grown woman, that is her choice. It must certainly wouldn't, be mine.
I don't have to dig that. You already revealed that part of you. I don't care if your Hafu or not. That is just you. You being Hafu have nothing to do with it. If I married a Japanese man, it wouldn't be a man who behaves like you who sounds like you was around the wrong kind of crowd and got addicted to Hentai like a mad rabbit. I know a lot more than you think. And I fully understand the ramifications of I was to marry and have half-Japanese children how much they would feel out of place in their own country of origin. Which was another reason why I told my family and friends, no to marrying because it would potentially cause my children harm.
What your doing is bringing dishonor to your family and her family. And you about what it says about honor. It speaks ill of no one.
@btbc92 You want to be my friend or my enemy? I'm confused. You can't see the love and hugs and kisses my wife that my wife and I share. You assume she's some obedient Japanese housewife when that's the last thing I ever wanted. As I said, she was the first with whom I showed the above video. It's probably considered age-restricted for all the foul language, but that's almost what inspires me to show my admiration of how tough women can be beyond the girls in high heels and cosmetics that Hollywood portrays as supposed badasses who are women. These are women who are actually badasses! I'm amused in a way but also impressed that women have the capability to be this way. It challenges my thoughts of how women can be like.
No. It is because you are insecure with yourself because of your HAFU. You already see me as an enemy because your life as a Hafu was anything but normal.
Buddy. This is what you do not understand about the role of a woman in a man's life. A man is ALWAYS to be submissive and obedient to her husband, no matter who he is. It doesn't matter if you are American, German, French, Chinese, Japanese, Arabian, etc. If you are a female born, you are to be obedient to your husband. And a man is to be a provider, a protector, and a leader. However, way he can. That is something that is always ingrained in Japanese culture also. Even if she works or does nontraditional things she's still in your house isn't she? That is how a woman shows her love. She loved you for YOU. NOt for your pettiness or because you are only part Japanese, but who you are deep down in your spirit. I doubt she would really like you treating others like that, especially if you treated her like that. Your insecurities as a half-Japanese person stem from the prejudice you face as a not fully Japanese person. I may not be biologically Japanese, that doesn't mean I don't understand Japanese thought. I've been studying since my childhood so one day I would be able to integrate. Many Japanese do not have an issue with me. So whatever your problems are, are telling me about your past and areas you never got healed from. That is why you attack me with it. As a married man, those talks should never come out of your mouth. You are not a bachelor anymore. And even then that is wrong. Women desire to be respected and that includes how their men view other women or else she may grow to feel deep inside that she will never be enough. Some women settle for it. I will not settle with that from any men. Not even towards women who I may not like myself. I wouldn't wish that on any woman either.
@btbc92 It wasn't anything but normal being hafu but I see you as a potential enemy because you are targeting and attacking and judging not only me but my wife while obviously being so clueless as to how things actually are! We want to take turns judging each other and I think you have a miserable life. It's so miserable that you want to take it out on me because you think there is something sensible and decent about me, but not the other guys here who will flash dick pics at random women and your life is so foul and horrible in some way that your only pleasure is degrading people like me who will even bother to even respond to you rather than block and ignore you. You want to take turns playing amateur psychologist? Let's go!
It is not about our clothes or appearance. Women like she and I aren't just born, WE'RE MADE. Because in this world, we have no choice. It is a war. You must be prepared for war.
Like I said. You already saw me as a potential enemy because of your Hafu. You see anybody who doesn't agree with an enemy. It tells me about your lifestyle and what life you lived. What you do in your marriage is not my business. WHAT DOES concern me is you are a married man and you're talking about another woman like you are still single, like you are still pursuing, like your still looking. I wouldn't have said anything to you. But until I saw and hovered over that you were MARRIED, THAT got me mad. I don't care what the other blokes do, but as a woman with honor, and integrity, and having morals that tell others that you as a married man is a red flag and is moralless. Now if SHE likes a man who talks very dirty and degrading about other women in or away from her presence, who knows, maybe she does like it. I don't. And the fact you're saying these things to a barely 18-year-old who doesn't need that kind of perversion is also what concerns me. How you live your life is none of my business. I know what it is liked to be hugged and kissed that doesn't always mean a person loves me. I can feel who does and who doesn't.
@btbc92 "Child of God". Gimme a break. If there is a God, He/She would certainly be less judgmental than you. How about "Child of Satan"? Child of misery, child of the antisocial, child of taking everyday frustrations out on other people. Call yourself that and I might find you less of a hypocrite.
That is all you feel because you hate yourself. God had through Jesus's disciples said men, love your wives as Christ loves the church.
And until you learn to love yourself, you don't know what love is. You still hide within darkness because it is too comfortable for you to come into the light. That is your choice. I cannot force you to do anything you don't want to do. A person who hates knows nothing about love nor the language of love. because love is also a correction. And you are a person who despises correction.
If I am miserable, it is because YOu people are miserable.If I am unhappy, it is because YOU people are unhappy. If I am so called "anti-social", it is because I am a introvert who knows now to learn to be more SELECTIVE in who I would have in my company and they are but very few. Less than 10 few who are even close to me and to my heart. You people are so undeserving of it because no amount of all of the love in the world would heal you, people. You feed on the weak so you can feel strong. You shame others so you can feel great about yourselves. You degrade others because you think of yourself as degradable and ugly and that is the image you see of yourself. You try to snuff out any light that reveals your darkness. So it is not me who does these things, it is people like you and you want to know why people like me are "antisocial". NO. I am not socializing with bullies, jerks, abusive and miserable people and people choosing to be a*holes to others. I will not tolerate that anymore. You're a man with problems. And you never fixed those issues and now you're attacking me with it. And its not self-defense either. You're just toxic.
@btbc92 You have broken a record on the most annoying person I've ever encountered on here. Do you want to be my friend or not? I got my flaws. I'm sure if you've followed my posts besides my insecurities about being hafu that I'm not afraid to admit my flaws. I want to overcome them. I struggle with them a lot, like my love of drinking. But you barely yield an inch to me and share your flaws. You give me a lot of judgment (of which I think is mostly wrong, a little bit right but I don't want to get you motivated because you're a pouncer), but you don't give me your flaws.
You are so blind. If I never had any flaws would think I wouldn't say or tell you something I am all too familiar with? If you expect somebody like me to be your friend. You need to become a changed person. I am not going back to my past.
@btbc92 I'm just trying to be nice while you're pissing me off. I don't really want to be your friend. I'd do it out of pity.
To overcome is a CHOICE. You decide when you want to change. I too am learning to overcome my challenges by the Grace of God and not make excuses for them. I used to be very timid and shy and uncertain of everything, anxious every day, not knowing who is going to bully me, attack me, physically harm me, or if I was going to get the belt because I refused to hit back a bully. And yet, if you do, you get a suspension. Do you think I never had a dark past? I don't talk about it much, because I LEAVE IT there, and not allow it to constantly dictate my future. But I find it said, that you people don't seem to understand that nor care, and have nerve to judge me when you don't even know my or my intention. My words may be harsh, but that is because I love you. I love you all, humanity. Because God loves us and his creation. If I never loved you, I wouldn't be on this site for nearly 9 years with you toxic people. I wouldn't have bothered. I come on here for one reason and one reason only. To share the love God, and because I have a desire to help people. No matter how messed up you are. So am I. We are all sinners. But we are all also human.
You are not nice. I know nice people. You pretend to be nice, and you are very bad at being kind. You don't pity me. You despise me because what I got, you don't have. And you're trying to shame me with it because you deep down already feel shame. And trust me. I don't want fake friends.
@btbc92 Judge away, hurting girl. You have only my pity and that's all you will ever get from me. I have found it pointless to try to correct your misjudgments of me and my wife. All i have for you now is pity.
Lie all you want. Lie all you desire. Lie to yourself. Lie to your wife, lie to other people. You're not lying to me. I was once like you. So I KNOW exactly what kind of person you are. Period. You decide if you want to be that same person.
I'm the one who shouldn't be pitying you.
So I thank you for this conversation. YOUR motivating me more than ever if I were to marry not to bring that toxic baggage into my marriage and make my poor family miserable. Thank you for teaching me not to be you.
@btbc92 Well, at least I can say have the desire to put in the last word in common. But feel free to pity me if you want. I don't think you're capable of truly pitying though -- as I do -- because you attack unprovoked. NIce to meet you, Child of Satan!
I wouldn't pity, because I love. You are just somebody who would be too difficult for me to love because you don't accept love. I would never give anything less than that. That is below my standard. You settle for less. You just reminded me to never have my children feel less, be it if they were half or not. They would be loved and if I have to use you as an example one day, they would know so they won't feel like they are the problem.
@btbc92 Geez, our mutual inability to put a stopping point on things is a problem! Am I really so bad or do you just think you're singling me out somehow for whatever reason? I'm guessing you're an extreme introvert, just judging people so hard when you go outside -- judge this, judge that -- without the slightest inkling of who they are. I don't think it challenges any external observer as to who the judgmental one is here (although they do not have the benefit of our previous interactions).I have to resort to a rude opinion. If you have such a greater idea of what a happy marriage can be than me and my wife married over 11 years now, then show it. Show it or GTFO you armchair quarterback incel loser. Demonstrate what can be so idealistic and great or STFU.
@btbc92 As for calling me a liar, thank you for the greatest compliment! It's like my truths that I say are so true that you can't believe them whatsoever.
Let your wife read all of that, I bet you would have gotten smacked.
I am a good judge of character. And I can at least tell the difference between a troubled and misunderstood person verse somebody with microaggression and choosing to be an a*hole. Guess where you fit? Certainly not misunderstood. Your just using that as an excuse to be a jerk.
@btbc92 You're a horrid judge of character and among the worst that I've ever encountered. Your EQ is like zero. But I don't want to wish you ill as you misjudge and misjudge people as you have me, hellspawn.
No, you are who I can judge as. You are literally a jerk. That level of tone and language is disturbing, and I do not want to have that around me. Any husband of mine speaks ill of other women, and speaks to me like that would have been told to get professional help or be served divorce papers. That is how serious I am. No, your wife needs to see what the hell you posting and how your speaking to me. I bet she would be horrified! I can tell you are not stable as a person and needs help.
@btbc92 I hope you can get some guy who can tolerate your horrible tendencies to eagerly misjudge people! Did it ever occur to you that the reason you're so alone and miserable is that you just suck as a person? Nah, that's asking too much of an egomaniacal, judgmental, sociopath. But I pity you. Pity pity pity. You have my endless pity.
No MY EQ, my discernment, Intuition, and being an empath is SO HIGH, what you try to hide cannot LIE. You revealed to me ALL that you are. Whoever you were in the past if you were even kind and sensitive at all. Your personal experiences and lifestyles have changed you so MUCH, you are no longer that past person. But a man who is secretly bitter and angry and hiding that from his wife, who probably already KNOWS but says NOTHING. Out of respect for her husband.
@btbc92 Get a refund for your test results. You're a fucking retard in the EQ department, dumb-dumb. Where'd you get your EQ results from, "I-am-right. com?" You are a socially clueless female incel. Nothing you can say or do can hurt me that bad because I'm left with the company of a loving wife, and loving friends, and you aren't. You are a hurting soul. I'm a troubled soul but one that has company.
I know. I am starting to see you over there now. You have a good woman who loves you more than you let on. Who loves you more than you even realize. Who loves MORE than you give her credit for, Who loves you MORE than you even love yourself. You don't even show her much of your emotions because you afraid of it. You're afraid. Your a man who fears so your anger comes out even when you don't to. So your shame, you judge, you attack and butcher the hearts of others because nobody understood you. Nobody understood your heart, like your wife did. Like she does now. I can feel it and sense it. Your anger is a defense. I know I too have had that defense. But man, you gotta let it go. You gotta let the anger go. You gotta let the past go. You gotta let what you didn't receive as a child from your parents go. You gotta let go of what other kids told you to go. You gotta let what your teachers said and did to you. You gotta let it go. You gotta let go of what the neighbors said. You gotta let it go. You gotta let go of the hurt and the pain. You gotta let go who hurt you with words and with tongues like swords, and fists of hate. You gotta let it go.
@btbc92 That's actually starting to get interesting a bit but I'm turned off by your ego and confidence in your EQ. You still got it wrong when I shame and butcher hearts because I never do it unprovoked. You got my wife right though. She's the only one who can really understand me at the end of the day.
You got to let go of hiding behind your friends to feel better about yourself. You gotta let it go from using your wife as a pawn to your insecurities. Your friends and loves ones because of the abandonment. You gotta let it go from societal expectations that others be the source of your happiness because you are afraid of being alone. You gotta let it go. You need to stop pretending your okay. You need to stop pretending you have everything but have nothing within yourself. You have to be honest about your desires. Your true desire to truly overcome, from attacking others, and bullying others, and judging others are harsh as you judge yourself. From unforgiveness, from not forgiving yourself. From using others as a scapegoat to hide the sorrow you feel. To hide how alone you feel inside. From the uncertainty as a man. Still holding on to old ways when God wants to head it a make a new in you a new man, with a new heart, with a new vision, a new purpose, a new desires, and new feelings, and new thoughts, and better changes and betting things to come your way. You have it all, you say, yet you feel empty as if you missing something. God wants to give you a new purpose and a new goal to strive for if you only follow him, and humble yourself and be obedient, he would take away ALL that plagues your being. But if you don't submit to what he called you to do, then you be left in that tireless state.
Either you want to be delivered and set free from those stones or you keep it and live with that guilt. You decide. And you will be made brand new. Wow.
"You are not afraid of my chosen. You are afraid of change."
@btbc92 The second part seemed to miss the mark. The first part was getting good. You missed a lot on the second and seemed to pin me into a stereotypical compartment. Maybe if we met in person along with my wife, you'd get more of a clue. You want to get a hint of me beyond whatever vanity you perceive of me and I was hospitalized for rescuing a couple from a gang beating. Broken teeth and jaw and hands from blocking their kicks along with broken ribs. It left me with something not quite right in the head. But I will stake my life for a stranger who needs my help and not just a friend, or lover. I am far from a perfect man but I have never shied away from paying the cost to save somebody from harm's way, and I have the formerly broken bones and scars to show for it. If you knew that about me, I think you will judge me differently. I am not immune to vanity but I think you perceive my vanity more than anything else.
I don't need to be there to be there in spirit.
Be truthful. Be TRUTHFUL. You still hiding and not being truthful. What is at the heart? What is at the root? Be truthful. It is the root you are afraid to pluck out.
I don't say anything that I do not sense in my spirit.
@btbc92 If you were there in spirit, then you would not jump to condemn me at the very least. At the very least we'd be kindred spirits. You want some deep-rooted confession for all my sins and you can see them if you've followed my posts as you claim to have. All I get from you is a reluctance to admit your own and a tendency to focus on my faults, and with at least 75% of them missing the mark.
It's like you got pricked by a really bad rose bush. A thorn there, you want that out, but because of the pain of trying to get it out, because it is so stubborn to be removed, that you leave it there, even though you know it's causing you pain. Do you live in a suburb kind of home?
I don't need your confession. But you're definitely not telling the truth. I can tell you all about me, and you would have treated me badly anyway. Didn't you not just tell me that not many posts ago? Who now is being a hypocrite? That doesn't make us kindred spirits. I am just sensitive spiritually as I always have been while you chose to insult my intelligence. When God uses you to speak, it is no longer about you, but what God desires to use you for. When I speak, God is able to speak through me.
@btbc92 You have a certain knack for sharing the minimum about you while putting the spotlight on other people if I may say. I could not afford to live in central Tokyo so I live in a suburban house in a relatively quiet neighborhood of elderly people and family, although not too far from downtown. Actually, that's what prompted me to ask my wife for marriage. I had saved enough to buy a house without a mortgage but it was outside of central Tokyo where we both lived. Even a small house costs over a half a million dollars USD in central Tokyo. I was able to purchase one for a fraction and just using my savings outside central Tokyo but I didn't want to impede on my wife's work. She had a great job as a book editor and publisher and she lived very near to her office. So I was trying to tell her I wanted to buy a home and it sorta worked into a marriage proposal. :-D It wasn't like one where I got down on my knees... I did that later.
I've shared about myself for over 8 years. It is not my fault you don't pay attention. I know you don't live in central Tokyo it is expensive. What I saw was not central Tokyo, it is a quiet neighborhood.
@btbc92 I would pay attention more if I judged you as eagerly as you judge me, you know. I really don't think I'm the guy you think I am. I'm foolish and drunk and stupid and immature sometimes, but I have my good points, and you can't see that online. However high your EQ is (I apologize if I was being nasty about it), it's like you can't see me in person with my wife. So it hurts me when people judge quickly without seeing us together. We're an unorthodox couple and so we're used to a lot of remarks and so I might get a bit more defensive than usual about it.
@btbc92 The "hafu" thing carries over even when we're together, you know. I gotta be on the defense. So I'm sorry I attacked you. I've learned to counter-punch very hard.
Smart people do not share everything with everybody. And if you were smart (hypothetically), you wouldn't either. You never know who is and isn't an enemy. The enemy is always watching, and so do you must be diligent. The enemy doesn't like me saying anything that can help others from where they are at. So I am always attacked on here because of those demons on people. I can see you. As I said, you chose to be like that. You being immature, and drunk has to do with your choices. I can see that you have habits that are destructive and isn't good. I don't have to physically meet you to know what you are like. I feel people's spirit and their energy. So even if I never met you physically, I can detect you if I did in person. I do not share about my abilities lightly because it would freak people out.
I know why you attacked me. I have been bullied all my life. I know what hafu means. And I apologize myself for bringing that up, but you weren't being honest and you attacked me based on what others did to you. You are you, your Japanese in your own rights. I don't see you as less than who you are. You are not less than any Japanese person. You were born there, your Japanese to me. I never understood how can anybody treat you any less because your are not full-blooded or whatever. That level of prejudice is wrong, so please do not assume my thoughts are theirs. I don't take what you say personally, but I will not pretend what you said hurt either. But what hurts me is that you feel you cannot be truthful and vulnerable. I know what that is like. But you must be careful who you share that with. That is all I say. And not speak like that about other women when you have a good wife who wants to love you for you and speaking about others as if, again single is not healthy. Women don't like that.
@btbc92 I'm a pretty open book and immature and reckless that way. It's why you touched on a soft spot for me as though I'm not and some sort of liar. But I think if we met in person, I think you'd at least find me okay -- maybe a bit stupid, immature, reckless, what not -- but trying to be decent between my attempts at joking and fun. I think the least you'd find me is dishonest because I'm an open book even if it's so dumb! So I think I was hurt a bit like you thought I wasn't an open book, and that I am pretending and living in some fantasy world when I take so much pride in not being that way for better or worse.
@btbc92 I think if we can't live life honestly -- like naked with flaws and all -- it's not worth living.
It's not that you're an open book. You like me in a way, selective what you want out there and the rest you keep yourself. There's nothing wrong with that. It is how you handle it that can impact how others may perceive you. That is how deep I sense about a person. I just often to keep to myself, not pry and keep my mouth shut. So no. You really wouldn't have known that about me, because unless we're close, I don't show all of that to complete strangers. Because not everybody is deserving to see all of that. But I still try to be civil and still be kind. If others choose to be mean, that is on them. I may react because of my own scars but I had to learn to have better self-control. Don't think I judge you just to judge and not judge and look at myself either. I examine myself as I example people. I am not exempt. I just strive to be a better person.
You are a down-to-earth person that's been broken. And because of that, you feel it is best to try to make your negatives as positives. But you fail to realize, it is not you trying to make it positive that is the problem. But that you have poor habits that are dangerous and self-destructive that need fixing. You got to detox. Because you've been harboring so much of that stuff for so long, you're making it a part of you that isn't you. And that is the point I was making. You don't have to be a drunk. But it is chosen to continue. I believe you can change, you just got to want to be willing to do so, and also learn to put the bottle down. It's going to be hard, but I believe if you make that as a start the rest will get a little easier. Your 41 now. Don't you think it is long over due?
@btbc92 I really think I put stuff out there! But I hide it under humor. It doesn't feel like I'm vulnerable making a joke about how I had diarrhea for a whole week if I can get some laughs, so maybe I'm hiding something deep down but not like what I did. I diarrhea-ed so hard the entire week! I even sharted my underwear and actually, that touches on secrets we keep from our SOS. One time I sharted and I thought it was just fart but it wasn't and liquid came out and I ran to the toilet and checked my underwear and there was poop stain on it.Then immediately after my wife came home and so I threw my underwear in a bag and pretended as nothing happened and waited for her to fall asleep and then I washed it and scrubbed so hard and got it all nice and clean and threw it in the laundry.
SEE. This is what I mean by respecting your wife. You got to hide all of that from your wife. Buddy, your wife doesn't care if you crap the whole house. She just wants you to love her and be honest. Why are you so afraid and ashamed of being around your own wife because of diarrhea? Your human. Let your wife help you and love you. That pride and ego stop you from having a truly fulling marriage.
@btbc92 Drinking is my worst problem for sure. It's a mutual problem though with my wife. She loves to drink too! Sometimes she passed out on the doorstep and I have to deadlift her and carry her to the bed and tuck her in. I think we sort of fuel each other's alcohol habits.
You don't put it out there. You just said you hide it under humor. You gotta realize, there is not a lot of people who are intuitive like me who can read that under that humor. I'm born like that to read that. It sounds intrusive because I just want to help but then you try to hide it also. That is the kind of person I am. I just want to help. But if you don't tell me what's wrong I will feel sad because I don't know how to help you. I can sense it, but, it would be rude of me to just hug or give you the advice you don't want. So I just say what needs to be said. You people are strange. You put out the signal like for Batman but once he gets there, you don't want the help. I can understand you don't trust everybody, I don't either. But hurting another who knows is like murdering somebody like you. That is why I say I am a person who keeps to myself. It is not because I am an incel or don't have friends or a husband. It's just you people hate me no matter what I do. Damn if I do, damn if I don't. So again, I am not antisocial. I just refuse to get hurt again.
Then you both got to change that then because you're fueling each other's problems. And that is not healthy.
@btbc92 Well, I want empathetic hugs but you don't give me much to work with! What about your faults, embarrassments, things of this sort? You come across to me however inadvertently like a "force" trying to analyze me without even meeting me and not a "person" I don't wanna hug a "force", I wanna hug a "person". I don't know what to say in this conversation. I don't know anything! You know, I wish we could read each other's minds sometimes. Maybe we won't find it so bad.As for alcohol, yeah, we both gotta change that!
Do you want to know what my faults are? I don't know. I question why am I here. I feel as if just me being alive is my fault. Because every sense I came to this world, the world hasn't been too kind to me. Every time I try to be around me, they despise me as soon as I enter the room. So it seems like not only my existence is my fault, but everything I do is my fault.I'm at fault for saying anything. I am at fault for saying nothing. I am fault for something and yet nothing at all. I try to help, people don't want it. I don't at all, I get in trouble. I am shame for being nice but ashamed for being to myself. I am told I don't say anything yet I get told they wished I never said anything at all. I get the attention of men when I don't and didn't ask for it. Yet other girls blame me for even doing something I never did. When I get the teacher's approval all of a sudden I am a good two shoes. Then if I try to fit in, I get more in trouble for "knowing better." Or get told in my defense; "I am not looking at other children I am looking at YOU." Yet other kids get a pass. I don't have to analyze you. I am BORN to be able to do. Do you not understand? I just DO. Not even my own parents ever understood me. I am not boy crazy, I am not just a girl wearing a skirt. I like to run track, I like to study my Japanese, I like making music, writing stories, daydreaming, I have an interest in learning, I like doing all kinds of things. But because I am not doing anything as you did, all of a sudden I think I am better than somebody. I never asked for to be abused, people just choose to abuse me. Even the "geek" in glasses gets treated better than I do. And most people I thought were my friends were NOT my friends. I got robbed, I had been falsely accused, teachers allowed me to be bullied, and never called the police or came to my defense. I would get hit with a belt at home, sometimes with bruises and scratches.
I get told you not sick, yet I had to get surgery for a misdiagnosed tumor, and yet I'm, faking? I got told I am stupid, yet teachers would purposely fail me at times. I get told I don't want to work or go to school when I fought for nearly a decade to get to college and be told I can't get this or that job without a college degree while I see other people, especially females mock me behind my back. Being sexually harassed and been assaulted by groping twice in my life. I even had a classmate threaten to have me shot in the head because he always hated me. I had to fear for my life, while my parents did;'t take my situation seriously at times. I had NO ONE to defend and protect me. I had to try to defend and protect MYSELF. Do you REALLY want me to hug you only for you to tell me you hate me? So have at it. You're not telling me anything I never heard before. And you can't do anything to me that was never done before. So if you threatened to have me killed, do you really think I would be that afraid if you did? I went through more hell than you ever realize and I still try to be the best person I can be. Why should I hide myself only for others to want me dead?
So no, you cannot hug me. Because the purity I have would make you feel like the wicked witch of the west, you would be melting and thus see me an enemy. The world doesn't like purity. Only to feed off it until you dry up like withered flowers. So despite our differences, the world loves you more than it does me. Jesus said the world hated me long before it hated you. So I know why I am hated now. I just find it so sad it had to be this world. I will rather be anywhere but here. This place is a nightmare. Wherever I came from had to be much more peaceful than this place. The people are strange. The world in general is strange. Even other Christians dislike you. Says a lot what this place is. It's like a prison. But a place God allowed us to be in to grow and learn something from this experience we call life. At this point, I am only a traveler passing through. I don't even consider this place my home. But I am here for a purpose. At this point, I rather complete my mission and get the first ticket out of here. I don't expect you to understand any of it. You might call me suicidal or crazy. No offense, don't care. I have been told that before. I have my loved ones also, but even they feel foreign to me. So before you want to judge me and call me an incel I am TO DIFFERENT as a woman for anybody to really truly want me for me. And not for my body or my personality or intelligence or talents alone. What about my SOUL? Apparently, I live in a "fantasy". Trust me, you may go through hell on earth, but unless you know what an existential crisis looks like. I suggest you be happy you have people who truly want you.
So what do you mean I never tell you about myself? Nobody wants to hear a crybaby.
@btbc92 That's quite a lot and I'm sorry if I contributed to your bullying. I thought you were the bully at first and I'm trying to summon my anti-bullying instincts. If we were in person, I'd want to take you out for drinks and not in a sexual way, and it's the same if you were a guy. I'll introduce you to my wife and my friends. If you don't do alcohol, there are soft drinks on the menu! They are nice people even if you don't think I am a nice person. I can at least assure you that they are. And I'm kind of an idiot and the insensitive guy sometimes in my group, but I can at least pass people off to a person who doesn't joke so much and isn't so insensitive when I realize my methods don't work. But please don't, in this hypothetical scenario, open up to people telling them what's wrong with their lives or their marriages!
I appreciate the gesture, but I am certain I said that I am the type to keep to myself? I never say all of this in public unless they ask for my opinion and advice. GaG is not the same as real life, you must remember. I very much know how to handle social situations. And in that situation that is highly inappropriate. And besides, I would never discuss those matters in public in front of others, but in private for the person to feel more comfortable. To be honest, others feel drawn to me and tell me their secrets. I never open up a conversation. I am quieter than you realize. Social etiquette demands that you know how to cater to your audience as well as read the room. GaG is a different story. This is a place for people to ask questions and share advice, which is what I do. Not everybody is appreciative of that. I know that which is why I am choosy with who I share that with. Why do you think I said before I don't show all of my to just anybody? But to whom I trust.
@btbc92 I look at trust as always a gamble. I'm not shy of losing when I place a bet, but I think trust is a good gamble. You like potatoes? I don't know what's wrong with me but I've become obsessed with the history of potatoes. Well, I used to go around joking that I'm a caveman who loves meat and potatoes. But then I found out that the caveman didn't even eat potatoes! They weren't a staple food in Europe until several hundred years ago. So lately I can't stop thinking about.
I go with my gut. I don't just trust anybody that didn't already feel good to me spiritually. That is how I weed out people. But I like potatoes if it's done well. I used to use potatoes in the Japanese beef curry I make, but lately, my curry for some reason tastes better without the potatoes. I just cook the rice to go with it and like to let the sauce speak for itself.
@btbc92 You make Japanese curry sauce? I only use instant kind and never tried like with my own dark roux, e. g. I kinda wanna try at some point but my preferences for curry lean Indian. It is only at the nicest Japanese curry houses that I like them equally as much.
I use the ones in the stores. I would like to make my own. But I am not in Japan, so I don't know the traditional cooking style. I learned it online. Once I did, never went back to regular American stuff. Where I live I cannot get the same stuff. It's hard to find. I used to find it in the city, but I rather have the actual Japanese stuff, not American substitutes. Like Matcha, I prefer that over tea bags over the ones that aren't authentic green tea. It is always imitations.
To be honest, I rather eat Japanese food. I'm tired of American food. I think I was born in the wrong country. But here, Japanese food is expensive.
@btbc92 We should swap places. I want a whole pound of brisket for cheap and less rice and noodles. and fish. :-D I am a kind of imposter in Japan with a subject you touched on earlier. I missed my teenage years here. That's a very true thing about it and maybe I misunderstand Japanese culture at times, looking at it as an outsider and barely able to read kanji. I can still make the best Mapo Tofu though! Cuz I've been to Singapore and Hong Kong and I bring it back home with proper Szechuan peppers which Japanese often omit.
For your sake. If you think Japan is bad, here is worse. They don't always treat Asians well either, especially up here in the cities and northeast. I'm sorry. Maybe somewhere like California where most Japanese tend to be at or Hawaii. But not the northeast. The most they will do is probably idolize you because you are part Japanese, but I can tell you wouldn't be able to survive what I had to go through. Even I can tell I wouldn't be able to survive that over there. With high suicide rates, hard to get help? I say to continue to practice your Kanj. I am not perfect at it, but I am good at memorizing though more than I am at speaking. I am not that confident with my Japanese. And trust me. The food you ask for is very expensive. It is not like the 90s where you can get that for cheap. The prices skyrocketed over the last 10 years. The covid made it worse. I wouldn't be surprised if everything got expensive to live now. I heard the pandemic made it worse for working women also. It's hard to find things where I am. Look. At least you can utilize what you learned in those places and make something new and unique. You have much to offer and bring to the table. Be more confident.
I'm American so to me they are football and soccer.
You son of a hitch I’m stealing this meme lmao
American Football started as a foot game, like Soccer/Football, and was based on Rugby rules from Europe. Eventually the rules started to change but the name remained.
@Wraith_Cemetery even football come from rugby but both sports have properly name.In football the moust dominant part of the body in the game is the foot, in rugby is more like a 50%-50%
The guy who will be with you, will like you as you're. Trust m🙃
To prove my answer... my mom, couldn't care less about sports, yet, my dad and her have been married 35+, and my dad LOVES sports, played them throughout his life, until he no longer could