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What makes me happy ?

Hi everybody, please take a min to read through this and help me out. I'm 26, very well educated, fun, funny, pretty, loving, just an amazing person. I want to first start off by telling you a bit about my lifestyle.. I'm bi-sexual, I love swingers clubs, and nude beaches and resorts..It's like a separate me all in one. I try and find men who ideally have the same interest as I do. Recently I have found someone that I really enjoy being with we have been seeing each other for about 4 months,he lives 2 hours away though and I'm not use to having someone gone a lot . He has his own business and travels internationally alot. When we spend time together we usually go on what I call "mini vacations" like I just got back from Miami from spending time for the 4th of July weekend. We went to a swingers club there and also to a massive strippers club..*which I loved them both btw* but... I got a little tipsy and became jealous... wtf ? I mean .. Really ? If I love this lifestyle so much then how can I possibly become jealous? I'm starting to wonder if he may be seeing other girls in other states and also be with me... I'm so frustrated. I really want to be with this man. He is 10 years older than me, I can't date anymore younger men..And I feel like I have found so many things in him that I adore, I wouldn't want to lose him. What should I say about me thinking about other girls..I mean while we were our this past weekend I allowed him to sleep with someone else but only in the setting like where we were, outside of the club would be another story. I want to continue my lifestyle as I really do enjoy it , but I think maybe we should date abit longer to establish more trust 1st? I don't know ... He really does make me feel amazing, money is never an object but like I told him, I would just sit at home doing nothing as long as I had him with me..I don't care about the money..At 1st I did but I have grown to really care about this man and now I'm wondering if I'm going to be the fool.. I care more and he doesn't ? I don't want a relationship like that.. It hurts to much..I've been there before. Someone please help me out what should I say..Let me know the right questions to ask without p*ssing him off..I want to have a discussion not and argument... Thanks guys ! xoxo :)
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