Trans or femboy?

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So i am a femboy and i am gay but i have been conflicted and hav been questioning about my gender. I wanna transition to female but i wanna stay as a femboy, but it contradicts each other, and im scared of growing up and being like a 30, or 40 trying to be a femboy and it not working out ( I deeply apologise if i hav offended people in their 30, 40s or older, it was not my intention) anyway, if I transition to female then i will lose my label as ‘ femboy ‘ because im no longer a boy because i’ll be a girl instead. And girl dressing up all feminine is just normal these days…ive been battling this thought for a very very very long time. i hate that im turning into a man as i grow older and i wanna become a girl but again if i do then i’ll lose myself as a femboy and just be a girl.

All advice and guidance would be greatly appreciated thank you for your time.
Trans or femboy?
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