Is this some sort of mental illness?

[blazerock44]

I really need help, I can't relax at all, the though of surgery is ruling my mind, I broke off from cancer thinking 2 Years ago after horrible thinking, I used to sit alone in school after school outside only me and stare at the ground and think, but I broke it, now it's surgery and hospitals and cutting in surgery, it's scared especially My friend had surgery yesterday in her to nail and they took it off and cut and I watched a video and I'm so scared, I'm hopeless and.. I can't take it no more.. I can't do the stuff I enjoy no more without thinking , it makes me cry.. how does it feel standing for 10 minutes staring at no were and thinking until your head hurts.. I wanna enjoy my meals and time, not feeling like I have to go to jail after I eat or stuff

Please help me

please

[Waffles731]

You had cancer yes,
I honestly think that maybe this has affected you psychologically,
If its not a mental illness at the very least you have an issue,
I suggest that you talk to your parents about this and try to a therapist.
I really hope you feel better

[blazerock44]

I didn't have cancer... I'm free of disease... but as I mentioned a lot of fear is happening and sometimes I stay till 5 am searching and reading questions and answers on whether people's op hurt or not... why am I like this even if I'm not having any surgery... I wanna get rid of me... thinking is ruling my mind.. I can't relax no more...

[Waffles731]

This seens like an actual phobia, a phobia is a psychological disorder where an irrational fear is effecting the victims life.
It means you need therapy

[blazerock44]

Thank you man... thank you

[Waffles731]

No prob,
Feel better dude

[Anonymous]

You don't have an illness. You'll get over it. Just don't look

[blazerock44]

No wonder u thinking about it and stare.. for 3 years

[Decentguy]

i think your having anxiety, but im not sure

[blazerock44]

I have social anxiety... read below