Is it normal after suffering for so many years to only wish my own life would be cut off completely and wish for death to free me from this world?

I'm currently suffering from mental illness and have suffered years and years of trauma and pain and sadness and suffering every day I wished my own life would be cut off completely and my own death to free myself of this world
Is it normal after suffering for so many years to only wish my own life would be cut off completely and wish for death to free me from this world?
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