When are you at your most depressed in life?

[Anonymous]

Is there anything that is consistent that you know always depresses you?

[Anonymous]

I am right now. Literally thinking of doing something bad in the upcoming few weeks about it. A big thing is money. I don’t have a job and I’ve applied to places for months but keep getting rejected or no response. So I haven’t paid my credit card in months or anything. My auto phone payment got rejected on Tuesday so I don’t know how much longer I have my phone on for. I applied for unemployment but never got anything back about that.
im supposed to start my school in the fall. I transferred from my community college but I don’t have any money so I don’t think I’ll be able to.
I don’t have any contact with my mother and I feel terribly guilty about it but also hopeless. I also feel basically dead inside when I think of my aging maternal grandparents who helped raise me and maybe I’ll never ever see them again.
I have an older brother I haven’t contacted him at all since 2020. We were basically best friends. But one time, I was at his apartment and he had me smoke weed and drink. And he ended up touching me inappropriately and I felt his you know what against me. He apologized and I forgave him in the moment but I went home and I’ve never spoken to him since.
My mother had this boyfriend and they bought a house together so I lived with them for a few years before I fucked up their lives. And we all became close. But my mother had a psychotic break after I left and ended up assaulting hurting him so they are broken up to say the least. But it hurts so bad because I still love him and I feel he will always be a family member to me.
When I was a teenager I’d fantasize that they all lived in a “dollhouse” together where there was just equanimity and I’d have all my family together magically. Because my parents are divorced and don’t talk, my dad doesn’t talk to my brother, Jay my moms boyfriend isn’t officially tied to me in any way, and so on.

[Opinion Owner]

And I also don’t believe I have much of a future. I don’t believe I’m capable of anything. I am a leech and I don’t have any money, so I’m taking up resources from my boyfriend and the others in the house. Literally not paying rent or anything and I feel guilty every day about it.

[Opinion Owner]

Honestly I woke up and cried the other morning because I don’t want to see 21.

[Opinion Owner]

I took my dads old car and he got a newer one, with the agreement I’d take over the payments from then on. Guess who hasn’t paid any car or car insurance payments in almost half a year because I can’t get off my ass. I am avoiding talking to my dad lately because I feel so bad.

[Asker]

You're thinking of a permanent solution to a temporary problem, post this again as a question, there are tons of resources out there that can help. Please let them.

[Opinion Owner]

Wish it were that easy my friend

[Asker]

Me too. But please ask for help. I've been at the bottom many times and always got out of it

[Opinion Owner]

I don’t know how to ask for help. I don’t really feel comfortable explicitly telling anyone what I think about.

[Asker]

Use this forum. It's anonymous

[MemeSupreme]

usually it's family related or when im feeling REALLY down about myself bc of not feeling enough

[Anonymous]

After being dumped, but it didn't last long.

[Nikki1989]

I have only been depressed once in my life, and that was a very long time ago. I generally don't allow myself to get depressed over anything.

[Princess3335]

School becomes so boring to the point where I become depressed

[DomeVélez]

i became depressed once when my fav jeans ripped 😂