Do you ever resent your body?

Question

Sometimes I actually really do. I'm not unattractive or fat or have 12 toes or anything. It's because of my bladder. My entire life has been affected by bodily fucking functions. It seems the universe thought in its great divine, cosmic wisdom to simply give cute, adorable me a little bladder and make me one of the 60 percent of American women who has a form of stress/urge incontinence. Isn't that just a gift from the heavens? This was one reason I never went out for cheerleading or any sports in school. I was pretty good at gymnastics but I would pee myself while doing it. Not exactly something I wanted to do in front of the entire school. Next I have had many UTI's, weakening my already little bladder. More joy! Yes, I'm the girl who pees when she laughs. And I laugh often. So, I have lots of laundry. Then add in the peegasms (Actual medical condition also bladder related) my body decided to develop at puberty which led to my omorashi fetish and it's just been an absolute joy to work through all this toxic shame with my therapist!(Toxic shame really is no laughing matter. It sux hard. If u have it , please seek help. It can be lethal)

My whole fucking life has been dictated by my bladder. What a pisser.

Yes, I know I am not defined by one faulty organ in my body and I have learned self-acceptance and all that and most days I am quite ok with myself. I have learned to work through all my issues by denying them with attention-seeking humor to foster my narcissism which I use to compensate for my insecurites and low self-esteem from having a weak bladder. A weak bladder which, after doing more laundry today, I realized I was pissed at.

And so I ask, Do you ever resent your body?

HawkPerception · Accepted Answer

Sorry to hear. Sounds more problematic than what I've went through. I'll share my story though, so you know you're in the same boat as others... in a different way.

I had a bone tumor when I was younger in the back of my left knee and the way I found out was one day, I was playing soccer outside on the gravel in high school in the mid of winter. There was snow and ice on the floor and me being the fun athletic kid I was, I decided to do a sliding tackle on the ice. It was fun... usually... but when I did it that time, my knee buckled, and not straight like you normally bend your knee. It buckled laterally. It was such pain I ended up crying after a short period and looking like a little bitch, which I never did in all my years in high school even in rough moments. I said fuck a school that day and attempted to shake it off and walk home. I definitely couldn't roller blade back like the way I got there. I rested, hoping the pain would go away. Nope... had it for days until I told my mom when she noticed how I was walking with a limp. She took me to the doctor and I that's how I found out I had a bone tumor behind my left knee. It was so big, that I could feel it by touching it. And that was what caused my mechanical problem. In the months that it took us to figure it out and have my body diagnosed, we had some serious scares. The doctor said that if my cartilage around the knee had dilated another millimetre or centimetre (I can't remember which, but I think it was millimetre, because that makes more sense), it would have likely been cancerous, so I was "lucky". It scared the shit out of my mom during the times we were getting it diagnosed and I could see she was putting on a brave face.

Anyways, fast forward, it was a mechanical problem with my leg at that point where I could barely walk, and when I did, it was always with a lot of pain. So I gave the green light for the surgery. They removed the bone tumor and then chucked me out of the hospital without knowing wtf was going on (shitty Canadian healthcare. They do not give af).

I thought I'd never be able to use my leg the same again, and to an extent... that's true. Even after I healed up which took months and technically more than that for full recovery, I lost my speed, I stopped being able to do parkour and run up walls and stuff, I couldn't do any intense lateral movements, and the worst part... the hypersensitivity I feel with my left leg. Because the surgery was in an area of the leg with a lot of nerves, it messed with them quite a bit. Even soaping my leg felt somewhat painful even when I ran a bar of soap on my leg gently. I've adjusted to the sensation, but I still have hypersensitivity, though not as much as before. I'm still athletic and still do handstand pushups and at least 120 pushups a day. I can still do an infinite amount of keep ups and do tricks when it comes to soccer, but it really does suck I'll never know that level of capability I used to have and have to live with my leg functioning at 50-75% of its capability at most.

Orion84 · Accepted Answer

I was recently diagnosed with a couple of autoimmune disorders (MS & Sjogren's), so I'm feeling pretty fucking resentful of mine, too.

I'm sorry for what you've experienced, as well. It's not fair that our bodies sometimes betray us. I wish I had something positive & uplifting to say, but unfortunately it's hard to look on the bright side, sometimes.

sage2021 · Accepted Answer

You are still young Random. Hold on to you're boot straps 🥾 because you might end up like me and get some horrible disease like I am dealing with (Shogren's).
I can understand why you feel like you do. Anything that is doing something to our body that we cannot control is very hard to live with every single day! 🤢

FreyaRed · Accepted Answer

Isn't there surgery option for your problem? I heard there is binding of bladder with elastic bands possible that can reduce these problems. It's not very invasive due laparoscopy. However don't ask me about details, it's not my beer.

Levin · Answer

Well yeah, it does seem that region is associated with resentment and bitterness in some form. I don't know if you've ever read Metaphysical Anatomy. It basically lists the psychological reasons or associations for a very extensive list of conditions. You might find it helpful.

As for me, I suppose I'm pretty lucky.

If I get anything it's really just a niggle. I am noticing any small issues are also melting away. I'm certainly in better shape in terms of my health at my age now than I was in my 20s. But that is largely because I'm fairly efficient at looking after myself and listening to my body. A large degree of this is my alternative practice. ie the Daoist would believe in training every part of your body. So for example, I train my eyes.

Some things would be nice for vanity reasons. ie my bone structure is annoyingly skinny. So I've strength training for years but I pretty much have lean fighter physique and I've put on very little weight in that time, despite an insane amount of effort with the weights.

ohsheeT · Answer

No not at all im not perfect that's for sure and im sure if you asked my friends what's wrong with me or my family they could find something

Or make up a word that would even know what it meant or if it was a real word or not..

Probably because I would just smile shake my head yes and agree with it as it went in one ear and out the other. If it even got that far

I see you didn't say well I dont have 11 toes. You went right past that to 12 toes. Yes I understand lol

Well I can tell you this I had my aunt louise. My mom's sister
She was one of the greatest women I have ever known

Our family was pretty tight she passed about 8 years ago I really miss her
But anytime we got around each other , I could make her laugh so hard that she would pee her pants , she would cry and tell me , please stop i'm going to be my pants laughing at the same time

Do you think I would oh hell know i had to take it to the distance
Just to see that, look on her face. The moment I knew she couldn't stop and I would walk away. Okay have it your way

Some of the best times ever
So dont beat yourself up
There comes the time in each one of our lives where we just have to accept things not only accept them but talk about them like you just did, because that just shows who you truly are. And you are a very good person. You are very smart and wise person. You could be my friend anytime
Because you are kind, you are honest. You say it how you see it , whether it's cross eyed or with double vision or with twenty twenty

But no matter what way it is , it's from your heart , and that's all that matters

OneViewpoint · Answer

No. I'm actually amazed by the genetics I've been gifted. I look about 20 years younger than I actually am. I've beat the living shit out of this body for 59 years and it just heals itself. Broken ribs (multiple times), both arms, collar bone, fingers, nose (3 times), torn my pectoral muscle, my latissimus dorsae, been stabbed 3 times, been blown off my feet by an artillery barrage, etc. I'm 10 lbs heavier than the day I graduated college. I still run, lift, swim, bike, ski, climb mountains, canoe, body surf and backpack. I still have a full head of non-thinning hair. The downside... I'm aging much slower than everyone I know. I keep having to shift my friend group to find people to do stuff with.

Sunrising · Answer

If someone has physically or mental problems, that nothing can be done about them, it's all about management.

That's easy for me to say, but I accept what I have been given, and compete against everyone on equal terms, whether this is the case or not.

7Phoenix7 · Answer

That sounds super stressful to have to deal with. I’m sorry you have had to…

I don’t resent my body but ADHD is hard to deal with, especially when a lot of people don’t actually understand what it’s like. They see you as just “forgetful” or “irresponsible” when you struggle to keep up with appointments and you’re constantly losing everything or forgetting to call people back.

lightbulb27 · Answer

I've never thought of that. maybe you have something else going on. if you have to go constantly, that sounds like digestive large colon issue as well.

I find most problems are addressable by change. some change is not possible, and if so, I accept the limitation.

aceleon · Answer

only thing i actually resent in my body is my height and hair

height: i wanted to be as tall as my father (6'1) but am 5'9.

hair: insufferable spawn of devil, only listens to me when i decide to cut it like it has a mind of it's own and only obeys when i threaten it only way i actually am able to give a well groomed shape is using a ton of water to slick it back or else i either look like an messy haired anime character or edwatd cullen style electrified.

aaron13547 · Answer

Yes I do. But I think everyone focuses on their own problems wayyyy more then the rest of the world does. When we think of our friends; we dont think of the "bad" things about them we think of the good things.

Next time anyone feels the resentment you are talking about... I think we should imagine we are our bestfriends instead of ourselves. Being ourselves we are far to hard on us sometimes. Our bestfriend wouldn't let us be bullied by someone else the way we bully ourselves.

MrChinaski · Answer

I carry illness. There is a lot of work I can do to make good outcomes more likely and bad outcomes less likely. But, on a given day, if my nose bleeds, I manage my nose bleeds, if my muscles are heavy then I just drag them around all day as usual but without a smile, if I get 2 hours of sleep one night... In the moment, I just roll with what my body does.

TonyMetal___86 · Answer

I accept myself the way i am...
Do you think that this bladder problem might have something to do with why you became a lezzie 🤔

That's a hard issue but isn't it possible to solve it with new medical technology?

You drink too much bOOze witch brandi, it will make your bladder far worse than it is now...

On_cloud_wine · Answer

I just want to say that you are beautiful, intelligent and funny..

douride2 · Answer

Yes apparently I was born with a defective heart. I found this out 10 years ago when I had my first heart attack.

Batsy01010101 · Answer

Yeah i do. And just a quick fyi i can relate to what you're going through about the bladder issues. I suffer from bladder cancer/bladder pre-cancer and the constant pelvic pain

sawno · Answer

Considering my body has been restricting me from experiences I really wanted in life yes, but mostly because people doing some fucked up evil shit don't have the same energy problem.

Jerre · Answer

No, I am rather fortunate as I am proud of my body and my friends with benefits THOROUGHLY ENJOY my body. No complaints from me!

PeachyPie93 · Answer

I am completely healthy.. but I wish I had a different face and body, I hate mine..

Nikki1989 · Answer

Well, large breasts can be a blessing or a curse depending on the day.

WonderingManII · Answer

My body has got problems too. IBS and Allergies and sometime bad skin all bother me on a regular basis.

butterly248 · Answer

Yes and no. Always had a tough relationship with it. Between my partner and my mother making comments about my weight, it's hard

exitseven · Answer

I have a physical defect that was embarrassing when I was younger.

Alex-Snow · Answer

Random
Every human is fighting some kind of battle
Whether it is blood pressure, body functions, unhappy marriages, finances, stress, kids, lack of a sex life... Try to focus on the good things in life and your body.

gutgunitreartrrt · Answer

My breasts are much larger than normal. I'm very shy about it and it prevents me from going outside much but I also have fantasies where I'm worshipped. It's a very odd feeling.

Den1971 · Answer

Never. I've been in it for 54 years hasn't let me down yet

ponderingpaul · Answer

Yes, I think we all have something we’d change given the chance.  I have a bladder issue too

AliceGregory · Answer

I love it, it gave me wonderful children!

queenofcardio · Answer

I hate my bladder too 😒 😑

PostHocFallacy · Answer

Unhappy at times but resent is a little strong

AngryCarl2 · Answer

My body is fine, my brain is fucked.

AviatorTom · Answer

Nope, nuff said.

linka_pat307 · Answer

Sometimes

beefcakebradybatson · Answer

Why would I?

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