My first time getting drunk actually happened last night. This is how the night went... Me and my cousin previously discussed going out so I waited for her call. I got dressed, did my hair and waited for the others to come by to pick me up & left around 10pm. On the way there we stopped in the convenience store of a gas station. We were some of the only ones there [not to mention there was a cop from the city there way out of his jurisdiction as always]. We got there and things were great, we were all pretty much sober but the other three I rode with, smoked beforehand.
I and my cousin went to the bathroom & I remember some girls whispering about us. I'm not really sure why though because we looked perfectly fine, and the same ones talking looked terrible. From their weave to the outfits. The same thing later happened with a girl my cousin knew who looked at me and her and her friend laughed. (she later got her karma though; someone threw a drink on her).
About 10-15 minutes after getting situated and sitting down at the bar, some others (a cousin and her friends) showed up. We got some drinks and things felt fine. After maybe 2 1/2 drinks I started to feel relaxed. A little more alcohol and I started to feel dizzy. One other person out of the group was visibly drunk. They danced a little, we took a photo and they left to go to another location. After a while I started to get dizzier which then turned into grogginess. I remember thinking, wow I see how drunk people feel when they think they're fine to drive (how are they anymore responsible for what happens than a woman in the same state that can't consent to sex?) I was mentally there but my behavior said otherwise, I was aware enough to not pee on myself and to find enough balance to squat over the toilet. The alcohol had the same effect as anesthesia after a wisdom tooth extraction. I was tired but at the same time aware until I wasn't. I was at the bar and saw some guy on the other side of my cousin just staring at me. Then his friends came behind him laughing & he started laughing and it actually pissed me off because I thought they were talking about me.
I moved eventually and stood against part of the bar because that's all I could do without losing balance. Some guys were nearby and I remember one asking my cousin "is she ok?". Then two to three other guys showed up and I remember one saying something to the other and I believe I heard it and assumed it was about me. As easily as I heard it I forgot it. I remember thinking this is how vulnerable women are when they drink and they're lured home by men or how it could start before they get their drink roofied. I rapped some lyrics and after a while when it got to the point that my cousin realized I was tired and out of it we moved over to some bars stools and then to the car to wait for her sister to come out so we could go home.
All in all, it was a great night minus the negative ass people that I always seem to encounter. I would/will definitely do this again but next time I'm dancing, if I'm not in the same the headspace as I was last night. I just hope the [black] community stops viewing each other as competition and being so negative and just enjoy the company instead.
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