Is life worth it?

[Anonymous]

I had my baby a year ago and I have always been battling depression and anxiety since I was 13 years old I’m currently 21…I found out I’m pregnant with twins and I remember how it was with my first baby after I had her and it was horrible I don’t think I can do it again. I’m wondering if it’s bad that I want to kill myself but I can’t because I’m pregnant…what do I do if I don’t want to be here anymore, no one knows how I feel because all I got to do is fake a smile and they are fine…I’m really wondering what is the purpose of life? I have been through a lot of shit since I was a child and I’m honestly tired of fighting for a reason to live

[FilmGuy93]

Start taking something called "Ashwagandha." Anxiety and depression are caused by an excess of a chemical in your blood called "Cortisol," which is a stress hormone that gives you a fight-or-flight feeling. Cortisol is the opposite of dopamine and serotonin, and it can enter your brain through the same chemic receptors, so there's like a giant race happening between these chemicals in your blood and brain. Anxiety is what happens when Cortisol wins that race more often than Dopamine and Serotonin. Most pharmacological solutions, and even stuff like weed/CBD Oil will try to boost the amount of Dopamine and Serotonin in your blood to give you relief, but your Cortisol levels still basically stay the same.

Ashwagandha actually filters that excess Cortisol out of your blood. So you reduce your anxiety by literally removing the extra stress hormones from your body.

Ashwagandha costs like $7.50/month. Please look into taking it.

[h3ll02u]

I know you are here to distract yourself from those thought. Hope you will find someone to vent with. And I'm wishing you the best with future kids

[youngmix]

Keep fighting, don't quit and don't drown. Fight until the end.

I've been pushed into the darkness, and it took years to find my way. Please, get help. This song's name is the suicide hotline, 1-800-273-8255. Listen to the song, and call them. If you don't live in the US, then let me know, and I will find the suicide hotline for your area if it exists.

https://www.youtube.com/embed/Kb24RrHIbFk

[Agape93]

I understand. I've been off and on wanting to die for years now.

Best advice I've heard, is if you want to die, delay it. Try different medications and therapies. What's the harm? You lose nothing but some time and effort. At best, you can recover mentally and at worse, nothing happens then you can do what you feel is best.

[Agape93]

If you want to talk, I'm here.

[LazerBean]

I would say seek help, put the babies up for adoption once they are born, and get your tubes tied.