Do you guys think that being a life is worth it?

The guy I want only wants sex and treats me like I’m not worth it.
The guy I don’t like who knows me treats me like a queen.
I’m a woman who used to have lots of energy to study work being my own boss and help animals or ONLY humans who need it.
Now I just feel like there’s not a reason to stay alive if I will live like this loving for years a person who doesn’t love me and getting the treatment I want from someone I will never love.
I’m becoming an alcoholic depressed woman after being so feminine elegant etc…
Do you guys think that being a life is worth it?
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