Is this the beginning of alcoholism?

[Anonymous]

I've been doing to parties for the last 4 months. On Saturdays, it's like I feel the need to continue drinking on clubs and parties. It's like I need to drink to have fun, to get rid of my stress and problems. I can't enjoy a party without drinks.

There was a small reunion of just 6 family relatives. All were only drinking either juice or one small cup of cheap wine. I felt awkward and bored. It's like I wished I was out of there and straight to a club, dancing and drinking all night long just to get drunk.

Then tomorrow there is another party and I feel like I'm going to drink all night long too. Ok this sounds bad already. Is this the beginning of alcoholism?

[BrokenHearted22]

Was it the best thing you ever felt? Have you looked at the AA descriptions? Not being able to stop? Urges?
It’s very important to assess your motivation. WHY are you drinking?
Relaxation is different than drowning feelings. Let me know if I can be of more assistance. 💜

[Asker]

Yeah it was the best sensation I've ever heard. It was like I was at the most happiest moment ever, dancing with my friends, still having a normal conversation even when I was drunk and away from stress, problems, away from everything.
Then the next day is the mild headaches, the hangover and feeling drowsy for hours.

[Asker]

I'm unhappy about my life and it's like drinking temporarily makes me feel happy.

[BrokenHearted22]

I completely understand. I do think that that indicates that you may be dealing with alcoholism or an alcohol misuse disorder. Most “normal” people use alcohol for relaxation and the occasional social interaction. People that have an issue with alcohol, like me, use it to self medicate. I am more confident, more sexual, more forward, more friendly, etc. when I drink. I don’t know if it’s too late now but my advice to you would be let it go completely. Don’t ever touch it again. I am 43 and will deal with this for the rest of my life. That’s probably too much to ask but I do anything to keep people from dealing with what I’ve been through and what my fellow alcoholics have been through.

[Dreamclouds]

Yes it is and don't go there, I know my opinion will be insignificant in the events that happen so near to you and are so intense but just don't... it clouds minds and judgement and gives the illusion of fun when it creates such a strong problematic lack of equilibrium on the inside.

[NamerOfStars]

It sounds like it. When you get to the point where you need it just to reach "normal", then you're there- but then, it's too late. Time to steer away, at least for a while.

Best to fight it while it's still easy to fight.

[Miah04]

Yup. That's how it starts. You're training your mind you can't have fun without drinking

[Asker]

Sadly. I rarely drank and now I'm changing. Then once I get to drinking, I don't stop until getting drunk, till feeling that sensation. It feels like I'm at the happiest moment of my life, as if I'm on the clouds.

[Miah04]

Yup just becareful not to get to bad off

[strateguy632]

not alcoholic, just set a limit

[Pterodon]

Do you plan your drinking?