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So ill try and keep this as short as possible. My ex girlfriend broke up with me in the beginning of December. We spent almost 3 years together we had a lot of great moments and a lot of bad ones. When i was with her my finances were a major issue. We also had trouble trusting eachother for some stupod reason neither of us has cheated or been with anyone else since the break up. She claims she los t feelings but won't tell me why. She herself says she's confused. We had sex a week after the breakup. Since then we slowly stopped texting and went through thus block un block phase. Admittledly i didn't handle the breakup very maturely and said and did some things i regret. On several occasions she would reach out and tell me she's broken/hurting but won't tell me why. She has some issues with family back in Europe but she won't open up to me about it. I did reach out to her for a favor back in feb and she helped. We started texting again but then eventually she ended up blocking me again. About a month went by with no communication. In that time frame i went from beijg very unstable financially ti having a 6 figure job. It sucks because i know so many of our problems stemmed from money and the issues it brought. We did in fact love eachother atvone point and talked of kids and family. Anyways Yesterday we saw eachother in a restaurant. I was getting a pickup and she was sitting right there woth her friend who i know. It was incredbily awkward and we couldnt pretend like we didn't see eachother. After about a min or 2 decided to just go walk up and say hi. Complete chance encounter and i was happy to see her. I walked up to the tabke and she looked incredibly nervous and shy. Her friend said hi and my ex said what are you doing here very coyly. It caught us both off guard. She couldnt even look at me. It was very tense. As soon as i could really say anything the hostess came back with my order and i left. I ended up txting her and to my surprise she responded.
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I said something like that was incredibly awkward and that it really caught me off guard I said you look great and I wish we couldve catched up on life. She responded something like I know you want me back but I've lost feelings but I respect you. She says that she doesn't believe there's a way back and that she's also broken. She once again told she's not doing well and when i asked her why she says to just stop texting and that she's going to block me again. I said good night and thats it
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One thing i want to mention her mom texted measking about something and she did mention that my ex has been literally crying for weeks. This was abiut 3 weeks ago. So im just all so confused about the whole thing. Anyways yeah.
Long read but what do you all think?
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