How do you begin move forward when you lose your spouse?

I 30m just lost my spouse 27f on the 7th this month after her having complications after a gallbladder surgery and going into cardiogenic shock. Having both left and right sided heart failure. I had a chance to say goodbye and hold her hand as she died. We tried for a heart pump or heart transplant but her body was not healthy enough for a transplant. When she dying in the moment as her pulse started coming down. I felt sparks of electricity and was hit with a charge when her heart took its last beat. It felt like it changed the electromagnetic field around my heart. I've been struggling to deal with the grief with having headaches everyday. Looking at my passenger seat in my car and breaking down.

How do you begin move forward when you lose your spouse?
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