If I never get married can I live alone?

I feel depresed as family say u can only move out til marriage but I got bad luck and no man ever became my boyfriend so a husband and marriage don’t exist for me and im 28 soon. I wasted my whole 20s living with parents instead of living with a man. My parents are divorced and my moms a hoarder. The apt is filled with stuff on the floor, I can’t cook as she has a million things on the small counter, she’s alone yet has a million cups plates bowls. I try clean & I get scolded.
the bedroom is shared, door open all day, can’t masterbate , or take sexy pics for a guy.
I have sexless life. I go to store alone & girls are with a man & baby sex all day happy.

my dream is decorate my own studio apt , i want it come true at 28. Yes my dream was at 28 have my wedding move out with a man but it never came true. I won’t be 30,40 living with parents forever.
my mom can’t afford rent $1600 yet I advise she rent a studio as it’s cheaper & she gets mad. Yet this apt is tiny like a studio. She’s stupid.
I don’t deserve take care of her and I never live with a man hav babies. It’s n out fair my brother can live with wife & babies & I stuck taking care of mom? No.
she lives in a far city as it’s for rich people yet she can’t afford a nice house she’s in a old ugly senior apt where cops are here daily too dangerous. I’d rather live in a humble not rich city in a nice studio apt. I’m not stuck up.
my job is too far from moms senior apt and I hope I can save money 2 months to live alone but I’m still searching for a boyfriend that wants live with me so I can leave my family 😓

If I never get married can I live alone?
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