Questions: Relationships

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I met her on a coding forum in June 2020. I can remember our first conversation.

I remember her telling me she never had a first love or any romantic bond with a guy before. At the time, she was 17 about to turn 18. I never expected to come across her, especially because I wasn't particularly seeking a woman at the time. She was perfect, and we really hit it off. I was specifically wanting a woman without a romantic past.

Anyways, we continued to talk more and more and we eventually formed an online relationship.

After several months had passed, I remember us talking about getting married and where we would go on our honeymoon and what we would name our kids. I was truly excited.

Sadly, when I met her for the first time in person a week after her 18th birthday, she rejected me. She found I wasn't her type.

Fast forwarding, she just recently married a guy a few weeks ago who got to be her first everything. I am still devastated. I had to tell her mom not long ago to cease sending me emails. I was hurting too much, so badly I had to be hospitalized. I am still recovering from the trauma of it.

The girl i am currently in relationship with had a disturbed relationship before this and it was her first ever, due to which she has ager issues and sort of hatred towards men.
She easily looses cool and gets violent too , and what's worries me is that she targets the male part.
I try to be patient and try to calm her down although i am in pain.
When she's cool she regrets it too ad says sorry too.

But it has happened many times. I am concerned about my testicles and future children.
Shall I be patient for more time and give her bit more time to improve?