Should I ditch Christianity?

I reject the teaching of turning the other cheek, not repaying evil with evil, and only looking at what is spiritual and not anything physical. I feel Christianity ✝️ has done nothing but ruin my life. For self defense being wrong is stupid and for suicide being a sin and self defense is wrong doesn’t make any sense. I choose to defend myself whether I’m told I have that legal right or not.

If I should ditch Christianity ✝️, should I convert to atheism? If not, what religion should I choose?

Should I ditch Christianity?
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