Do you ever feel bad for living a good life?

Anonymous

Being raised a Christian, I always heard that you have to suffer and sacrifice for Jesus and as a Christian you will always be persecuted. You should live a humble life, not have nice things, etc.

Growing up, my parents were able to provide food, shelter, clothing, etc., but socially it was hard for me to make friends. My parents always told me that Jesus was persecuted too and to just suck it up. I got bullied in Jesus’ name according to them.

After college, I moved out of state and things didn’t get much better. At the first church I attended, I was excluded from social events, guys tried to compete with me over girls, and I was always gossiped about. It drove me insane so I stopped going to church all together, read my Bible less, etc. I travelled every weekend and hung out with “worldly friends”.

I focused more on my friends outside of church and my quality of life improved significantly. I began doing everything contradictory to what my parents taught me and now I’m a happy person.

I still believe in God and pray, but I don’t believe in all the doctrines anymore. I go to a new church now, but only to operate the sound/TV equipment. That was the only thing I truly enjoyed in church growing up and I still enjoy it. I don’t pay attention to the sermons or attend Bible classes.

I feel bad for not being more invested in church, but being more invested has led to stress in the past. I feel like a poser. My parents don’t even know how I feel. But my life is so good. I’m doing everything I want to and more. I feel more blessed not adhering to standard doctrines, which shouldn’t be the case, right?

Do you ever feel bad for living a good life?
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