Questions: Religion & Spirituality

I used to be a big fan of The Secret by Rhonda Byrnes since 2006 but now I no longer believe in such nonsense.

at first I thought it was working for me until I realize it was just a huge placebo effect all along when I realized that even when I think positive in life shit still never when my way in life. lets not forget that in life everything is made of positivity and negativity so therefore believing that a human being must think positive 24/7 is a huge recipe for insanity. lets also not forget that book sold 33 Million copies yet how much of those 33 Million people who bought it are actually millionaires at the moment?

another reason why I refuse to believe such horseshit is because I realized that a lot of the people who do believe in the law of attraction act and behave like narcissist snobs. like my cousin for example, he was the one that introduced me to The Secret. this guy is the luckiest motherfucker alive, he started working at 14, later on we would go job hunting together and he would always get called from almost every where we applied while I had to always wait for a miracle.

but just when you thought that was enough he also applied to the state university and was immediately accepted with a nice cozy dorm, all the financial aid he needed. but when I tried to do the same I was rejected instead and then kept getting fucked over by community college and technical schools.

we even had a fallout recently and this guy had the audacity, balls, and nerves to tell me that the reason why all this has been happening to me is a result of the universe punishing me for being "negative"

i dont wanna be burned alive or radioactive or bombs or shot or starve to death