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Many of you already know my story.

Back in 2020, I met this girl online on a coding forum. She was perfect. She never dated, never had a boyfriend, never kissed, and was still a virgin. She never even had a male friend before she met me!!!

We continued talking every day for months before we finally met in person, where she rejected me almost instantly.

I am still heartbroken to learn she is engaged to a new guy set to he married in a few months.

She is a devout Catholic and doesn't believe in sex until marriage. But on her wedding night, she will lose her virginity to him. They will be making love for the first time ever.

He gets to be her first everything.

In 2020, I met this girl online. She had never had her first love and never dating. She never even had a male friend before she met me. She was perfect.

We talked for months, even exchanging "I love you's". It crushed me when she rejected me when we finally met in person. I wasn't her type.

She met a new guy and is expecting to marry him in April. I still dream about her all the time in my sleep.

I am thinking, this guy gets to be her first everything. Her first love, her first kiss, she is going to lose her virginity to him... EVERYTHING! I am really dreading her wedding day. I can't take it anymore!!!

1. I am 27
2. Works full time as a junior-to-mid level software developer making $45k/yr (will increase exponentially overtime)
3. Own a motorhome
4. Own 2 cars
5. Still lives at home with parents.
6. Smokes cigarettes
7. Overweight
8. Never had a real girlfriend, although been on a few dates before
9. Lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old girl... haven't had sex since
10. Never experienced young love/romance
11. Hardly any friends, except one good one
12. Acts goofy a lot and makes noises
13. Very kind and charitable
14. Socially awkward
15. Has a mild case of Asperger's
16. Used to work as an EMT
17. Eats own boogers
18. Has 2 misdemeanor criminal convictions of stalking and harassment

I am 27 and I have never had a real girlfriend. I am thinking that I am also considered an incel at this point, considering I haven't touched a girl since 2015. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old girl, although it was only a hookup situation and I have only had sex only once. As mentioned, I never had an actual girlfriend.

I only want a woman who has never had her first love or any previous boyfriends. I managed to find 2 girls like that, but they both rejected me on the first date. One was 18 and the other was 17. The date with the 17 year old was last weekend.

I would best describe myself as short (5'6"), dumpy, and getting older.

I am heartbroken because the only chances I feel I had failed, meanwhile, a lot of my peers are getting married and/or having kids.