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Let me explain my situation really quickly.

as a kid i was always shy, lonely
and always hormonal.. mentally.

I was always looking at girls but never said anything,
thats sort of a lie id always hit on my sisters friends but if they werent friends of my sisters then no

I always pictured the perfect girl for me
id say she would have

Big light brown or hazel eyes
be mixed or light skinned.
have curly brown hair

(Creepily this is somewhat my moms description)
my mom has small brown eyes
my moms mixed
my moms hair is naturally brown is reddish but she dyed it black

But anyway that was my dream girl,
no matter how many crushes i had id never change the music i listened to because of them
id always listen to dubstep. that was my favorite genre of music

But when i got in high school, it was like i met the girl of my dreams.. she fits my description perfectly...
Huge pretty brown eyes
dirty blonde curly hair
mixed

It was like someone was listening to me saying the kind of girl i wanted it was literally like i wished for her and she came to me.

The only problem was, she has a boyfriend and i liked her soooooo much...
the music i started listening to changed
i swear i used to hate love songs... hated them.. not my phone has 80 percent of love songs on them.

My favorite song though is
J cole - dreams

This song reminds me of her so much
because he found the girl of his dreams, but he can't have her because she's taken,
and he's willing to do anything to make her his.

i think about her each time i listen to this song which is practically all day
so is it true?

I'm thinking about quitting my current swim team, to swim for the team that one of my ex-coaches coaches instead.

They're way less competitive, and they only practice three nights a week, and I'm the oldest by three years. It's also twenty minutes further away than the club I swim for now, plus I'm the best by far.
I also have to leave the people at my current club

On the other hand, I'm kind of burnt out from all of the practices (six nights a week for 1:30/2 hours) and I'm not very competitive, plus I hate most of the kids there (save for maybe seven people, and they're really the only people who give a shit about me.) It's not like I won't see them, and I don't particularly like the head coach, because not only is he one of those people that plays favorites a lot, but he's also a dick and has horrible music taste.

Plus I'm starting to realize that my ex-coach is one of the best things that's ever happened to me. I'm a lot happier when I'm around him and he treats me better than most people treat me, especially adults.

I don't enjoy swimming as much anymore because it's competitive and I'm one of the worst swimmers at my club.

I'm trying to make a descision, and I'm leaning towards leaving, but I'm not sure. What do you think?