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Hi there!

Me [35M] work as administrative role in our department, which a new girl[23F], meantime she has her school holidays, began her part-time job just over summer.
Since we're working in a big department, but in separated areas, we're not bumping in each other every hour, maybe except during lunch break, coz we share same canteen. To me she's cute, I'm old.

First encounter
In the beginning of this week, she pops up in my office coz she had some problem with her profile account. So in order for her to show me, she had to logon from my computer, so I moved away a bit to give her space.
After she was done, I rolled back so could start a short troubleshoot on what was going on.
But I noticed something with her behavior.
She didn't back away when I started working (that's what people usually do?), I mean, my office is big and she had plenty of room to casually back off..
So she just stood there very, veery close, like we could with no problem play a game on my computer using same keyboard..
Short after she had to logon again, just to clarify, so I moved away again, but this time "not so far".. So I expected her to try to reach over from where she stood to my keyboard, or just move the keyboard to her so she could easier type.. But nope she went just in front of me and start typing.
Her current position; she could just turn around and sit in my lap... WTF?

And then everything seems good, so she left back to her work.

Second encounter - Coffe machine
We got two machines; I was waiting for mine to be ready and she came and ordered hers.
So I had to ask her if everything is going well now since my high leveled supportexpertise saved her day, and gave her a smirk.
She laughed (giggled?) a bit and said yes, and looked on me very fast and then looked away.
Then I noticed she was super red in her face, blushing (?).. She didn't blush when she was in my office?

Am I overanalyzing things?
Coz now I instead confusing myself and need help.

We are not sympathetic. We care only for ourselves. When a family runs out of money their homes and cars are taken and sold for cheap, where the rest of us make a profit.

It’s a zero sum game of “I win, you lose”. There’s really no equal. A “non-zero sum game” means both sides are happy. But that’s rare.

Even helping homeless comes with a risk of being had. I bought a sandwich for a guy who said he was homeless, and saw him later at a grocery store with a basket full of food.

There are just people with less shame, less pride, who can psychologically take advantage of people, openly.

Yet we all - ALL - take advantage of people. Just not openly. People die of famine “over there” so we can live how we want here.

This ain’t really a call for action. Just stop acting so fcking righteous.

When you sit in church and feel holy, fck you. When you vote for the ideologue you believe will make things great again- fck you.

This lack of self awareness is our BIGGEST problem. If we could accept the fact that we are not sympathetic, and we’re actually GREEDY that’s a good first step. And we can try help people from a better position.

The nerd: reads tons of books and talks about video games and movies. isn't very masculine. Kind of awkward but sweet.

The chad: hyper masculine. Tall with a large strong structure. Square jaw. Is into traditional masculine things such as sports, cars, and drinking with his buddies. Highly successful in his career. Has a high body count with lots of dating options.

The boy next door: nice looking, but more in an endearing, rather than sexually kind of way. Not tall, not short. Has long dark hair. Is kind and a bit mysterious. Genuine. He works carpentry and has a passion for custom woodworking, has a love for coffee, nature, and hanging with his dog.

The beta: the nice guy who you are not very attracted to but feel safe with. He gives you emotional support and cherishes the ground you step on. He's financially stable and don't worry about him cheating.

The sugar daddy: the old rich guy who you exchange sex for money. Purely transactional. He travels you around the world, takes you to the finest restaurants in the city and buys you nice things.

The starving artist: could be a sculptor, a guitarist, an actor, etc. Has talent but yet to be discovered big time. He is interesting and fun, but broke. He works a low wage job while hoping for his future. You have feelings for him, but have uncertainty.