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Met this girl (24) online who moved to my city 2 years ago for work and things moved fast. One 3 hour dinner at a restaurant & I got the impression that she was a complete "goody two shoes." We had so many values in common... so I thought :/
2nd date she invited me over and we slept together, which caught me off guard. She initiated everything, but I went with it b/c it felt special. I didn't finish and she said "I'm sorry I'm not very good at this" which got me thinking she had not been with many people.
2 wks later we were in a relationship & the only thing I knew about her past was her one and only 9 month relationship & some dating that didn't work out. A week later at 11:30pm she gets a missed call & text from a guy saying "Hey, I miss you." She explained it was a guy she dated earlier in the year. No big deal she didn't even reply.

A week ago and a text form her ex for a valid reason created another awkward situation, which led to me asking dangerous questions. How old she was when she lost her virginity & how many guys she had slept with? I didn't think I would get unsavory answers, but I did.

She lost her V at 20/21 (not a big deal), told me I was the 8th guy she had slept with & the last guy was 4/5 months before me. With her only being 24 & a 9 month relationship in there I did the math. From the time she broke up with her ex there was an 18 month period where she slept with 6 guys. Very unsavory info, but it gets worse... 2 of them were one night stands where she invited the guys over to her apmt the very first time, the other 4 she slept with after only 2-4 dates and one turned into a friends with benefits situation for 2 weeks :/

We have already BOTH fallen for each other hard and I'm devastated. She feels AWFUL, said she was lonely & admits the mistakes & how stupid she was. I feel like she was only after sex, had no respect for herself, didn't learn from the mistakes & am having a hard time seeing her as the same person I thought she was.

OK, so I turned 50 a few months ago, but I have taken good care of myself, am a successful person, my kids are grown, and I divorced two years ago. I have always been told I am very handsome, but I have never really taken this seriously.

I started on a dating site about 10 months ago and put the age parameters to "ages 40 to 50" and began reaching out to women and they reached out to me. Here is what I found out:

I went on about a dozen dates with women who are "in my age range" (40 to 50) and was really disappointed. These women did not look at all like their profile pictures, most of them are seriously overweight, wore way too much makeup, didn't have much to say and overall they were completely unimpressive. These women seem hell bent on trying to recapture their "roaring 20's", even wearing inappropriate clothing, trying to put off an attitude of "I'm so sexy baby".

At the end of every date with with above 40 to 50 year olds, all but one was ready to have sex with me. I did have sex with four of them but I never had any intention of seeing them again -- shitty, I know.

I talked to a friend of mine and he said, "dude, why TF are you dating 40 to 50 year old women when you can have 25 to 30 year old women". I was kind of stunned. He leaned over my shoulder while I logged in to my dating site and made a few tweaks for me. Let me say, my profile is totally honest with very current photos, career, and information. Having said that, I reached out to some seriously hot women in the 25 to 30 range fully expecting to be laughed at (then go kick my friends ass!). To my surprise, I have an inbox full of messages from extremely attractive women all of whom are between 20 to 30. Amazing! I could never have attracted these women when I was 25, but so be it.

Having said all of the above, I am gearing up for a first date tomorrow afternoon with hottie #1. She is 26, a stunningly beautiful brunette, and she seems ready for action.

Am I totally fucked up?