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About me...

• I am turning 28 in a matter of days
• I am 5'6 in height
• Brown eyes
• Heavyset with strong upper body
• I weightlift
• I make $70k a year
• I am a software developer
• I live in my own Class A RV in my mom's driveway
• I am on the Autistic spectrum
• I have never had a real girlfriend (I seek a woman with the same inexperience... never having a romantic bond before)
• I act goofy and make funny and loud noises
• I eat my boogers and eye crust and chew on my nails
• I own a decent car
• I have a stalking conviction
• I like to eat out and be adventurous and travel
• I have been hospitalized countless times since adolescence and have mental health issues
• I have only had sex once and only once (7 years ago). She was 16; I was 20
• I vape
• I have an interest in fire alarms and sirens
• I used to be an EMT
• I am an incel

For me that feels like it is the case despite being one and the same body. Basically it goes like this.

Me: I love girls, they are so nice.

Brain: They want your money!

Me: Shut up brain! It's not true and you know it.

Brain: It's not my fault you kept watching so many gold digger videos. I am reflecting what you were doing.

Me: (raises both palms before my head) OK, fair enough, there's no denying in that. But please enough is enough already. Besides there were girls, who weren't impressed by expensive cars and gifts and they kept being with the same guy.

Brain: Hah! We'll see about that. Get a girlfriend and prove me wrong. Then maybe I will give it a rest.

Me: 😓 If only it was so easy and you're driving a hard bargain.

Brain: It's a fair deal. Just think about it and get motivated. Show me they're not interested in your money and i will reconsider what I'll give you as random thoughts.

So yeah, obviously i will not tell girls nor a girlfriend, that this is what goes on in my head. It will scare them away, they'll think, that i think, that they are gold diggers and that will just make them fume of anger and it's generally not nice to hear about it. I'm better than that. Unless she's really open minded, understanding, very curious and/or a psychotherapist. I'm probably a bit crazy but aren't we all?

I used to dabble a bit in drinking when I'd first moved from Connecticut to Texas although I did sip some alcohol back in Connecticut when my parents weren't home, and it was absolutely disgusting and my curiosity on it died right there.

My parents haven't had a good relationship, they're never really happy together and their arguments escalate into fights when, surprise surprise, they get drunk!

They keep vodka and gold tequila around but they drink Miller lite the most by a very wide margin. No exaggeration when I say that the night after they drink, there are cans everywhere and the garbage can is full of beer cans.

I got my toes wet a little more after I got my second job after leaving my first due to not enough hours and me wanting to deliver food instead of just making it. Don't worry, I never and I mean NEVER went near a wheel after having even the tiniest drop of alcohol but after work, I did drink sometimes.

In the past two years, I've stayed away completely from alcohol as the taste is abhorrent in all alcohols, it's just different levels of disgusting for each of them. It's extremely hard for me to get drunk and even then, any feeling of excitement wears off after 5 minutes.

After researching as well the impact that alcohol has on relationships, marriage and work, I've concluded that it's best to stay away from alcohol. Although I could've guess that impaired judgement leads to bad decisions.

I've seen the decay of a marriage that came from two narcissistic children trapped in the bodies of adults and that's certainly not what I want for me and my girlfriend who i hope to marry once me and her begin our careers and become financially stable. But thanks to healthcare costs for me due to a condition I have being at an average of $2,000 per month, I'll need to start my career before I can afford to live on my own.

Is that an attractive trait for a love partner to you?🤔

Like I love my girlfriend so I treat her like a goddess.
Not only that I worship her body by just kissing up and down her legs etc. I just worship her. She’s an amazing girl