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He's really nice to me but I found out that he write vile misogynistic on internet like saying :

"Only purpose of women is for sex"

He's also very racist especially against Muslim and Black. Said he would never date a woman if she dated one fo those saying they're whore and traitor.

He also commented on how he had sex with a 15 years old when he was 25 and how having sex with a woman inebriated is ok and not rape.

I'm not sure what to think of it because while he have said such horrible things he's the sweetest to me and have never been mean to me.

I went to his country for Holliday but he want me to stay permanently, said I could find a job easily but I don't speak the language neither can I read the words because they don't use latin letters. He told me I could easily learn it fast.

I'm confused what to do because I love him and even though he made mean comment, he never ever treated me badly or yelled at me or anything.

I’m not looking for a husband and marriage, I want a first boyfriend at age 27 and experience first time in my life what it’s like meet families , live together , have accidéntal pregnancy , bliss , fun trips with a boyfriend.
It’s ok if it’s not forever or 3-10 years. It can be short term 2-3 years only.

but still it feels difficult find a guy wanting live with me and be in love for me and want sex with me daily in our same apartment.

• You have to pay bribes to get higher education and a job, especially if you didn’t score 99.99%.

• When you use the Right to Information Act, they refuse to disclose any information.

• A tea seller becomes the leader of the country and then tells others to sell tea instead of providing jobs, while he wears clothes that are 1000 times more expensive than what the average person in his country can afford.

• Some people get reservations based on their caste in both educational institutions and jobs.

• Interviewers ask stupid questions, like whether you can cook or if you listen to hymns, even if the job doesn’t require any of those skills or qualifications.

• You receive at least one call from scammers every month.

• Rape and arranged marriages are the most common ways for boys to get sex.

• Three out of ten boys ask you to send them lots of pictures before they take you seriously.

• Boys who lack skills and have a thin, short penis demand 5 million dollars (either directly or by asking about your income) to marry you.

• This country has the highest number of iron rod insertions inside female bodies.

• Stray animals roam freely on the roads, even in big cities.

• Finding human feces at railway stations or on roads is rather common.

• The accent sounds very unpleasant, and they’re proud of it. They bully you if you don’t talk like them.

• They sell dangerous cosmetics to lighten women’s complexions but lose their minds if a safer lightening cream is released for men in that country.

• Only boys are supported and encouraged to leave the country. Girls have to marry one of those boys to have a chance at moving abroad.

• They can memorize facts like robots, but if you ask them for a reason, they can’t explain it in simple words (and if you can’t explain something in simple words, you don’t understand it, according to Einstein).

• Parents here think their children, especially girls, are their slaves.

30f and I really can’t tell if I’m inevitably single because I don’t want a relationship or it’s a case of self sabotage. Within the past few years, the only attention I’ve gotten from attractive guys were on dating apps. But that should be taken with a grain of salt, I feel like compared to the average woman, I don’t get attention from quality guys in person. I’m pretty shy and tend to speak when spoken to, on top of bad anxiety, I’ll say I question if women can relate to my lack of sex drive. I haven’t had sex since my early twenties/don’t masturbate and couldn’t care less if I died a virgin, will feel some kind of way if I’ve never found love though.

It’s as if I want the reassurance I’m desirable (from what seems like decent men) vs actually going out on dates, I’m insecure but wouldn’t just go for anyone that gives me the time of day. I just don’t get why it can’t ever go my way w/ the OLD apps, it’s likely bad luck but a pattern of: ghosting, fizzling out, the convo not flowing to my expectations & I dip out, just lack of interest (can go both ways) etc. I’m attracted to men, I really don’t think id date a woman but something about men at the same time turns me off (physically & personality wise). Like almost every woman I've known has been boy crazy since they were pre-teens and I never got it, I thought they were exaggerating or I was a late bloomer. Well here I am 2 decades later, my closest thing to boy crazy were celebrity crushes.

Am I looking for excuses to justify being single? Is it simply a case of being unlucky? Is there more to unpack here? Or is the right guy all it takes for it to fall into place?