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I usually wear a uniform at work but lately I'm having to go to meetings outside of the company and out of working hours meaning I don't need to wear uniform. It's very casual at my work but I still want to be appropriate especially when the weather is heating up.

I work in a warehouse and sometimes the temperature changes a lot. Last time I was called in last minute and I was wearing a dress I felt so uncomfortable as I work with mainly men and could feel the eyes on me looking at my legs and it just felt inappropriate.

In the past I’ve had instances where I just knew in my guts that my S. O. weren’t being faithful. I even suspected the right girl that they were cheating with. I still needed to look for proof but their change in behavior is what initially raised an alarm. Have you ever had instances where you just knew that you’re being cheated on?

30f and I really can’t tell if I’m inevitably single because I don’t want a relationship or it’s a case of self sabotage. Within the past few years, the only attention I’ve gotten from attractive guys were on dating apps. But that should be taken with a grain of salt, I feel like compared to the average woman, I don’t get attention from quality guys in person. I’m pretty shy and tend to speak when spoken to, on top of bad anxiety, I’ll say I question if women can relate to my lack of sex drive. I haven’t had sex since my early twenties/don’t masturbate and couldn’t care less if I died a virgin, will feel some kind of way if I’ve never found love though.

It’s as if I want the reassurance I’m desirable (from what seems like decent men) vs actually going out on dates, I’m insecure but wouldn’t just go for anyone that gives me the time of day. I just don’t get why it can’t ever go my way w/ the OLD apps, it’s likely bad luck but a pattern of: ghosting, fizzling out, the convo not flowing to my expectations & I dip out, just lack of interest (can go both ways) etc. I’m attracted to men, I really don’t think id date a woman but something about men at the same time turns me off (physically & personality wise). Like almost every woman I've known has been boy crazy since they were pre-teens and I never got it, I thought they were exaggerating or I was a late bloomer. Well here I am 2 decades later, my closest thing to boy crazy were celebrity crushes.

Am I looking for excuses to justify being single? Is it simply a case of being unlucky? Is there more to unpack here? Or is the right guy all it takes for it to fall into place?