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Job I'm working at is played with a fuck ton of immigrants this allows workplace abuse and when a Canadian actually wants to get an actual job they come into an environment that is toxic harmful abusive and is a complete nightmare and should not be allowed to exist. The place is morally despicable it throws out tons of trash and I hate it every fucking day it's cold it's wet it's damp the only reason I go is because it makes me laugh and I get paid 600 bucks a week if I want to if I work 6 days a week for 10 hours straight each day yeah 60 hours gives me about 800 bucks but it's not much, like I'm not happy I'm not happy at all it's bullshit I hate it there I'm not happy I'm miserable the pay is awesome but it's not worth it

Like I literally got ridden up because I took my day off on my scheduled day off. And then I came to work on my day off because I'm allowed to and I told them hey you going to write me up because I coming to work on my day off now Jesus Christ

Also happened to my friend Mike a cardboard guy he got ridden up because he didn't come to work on his day off

I think I know what I'm actually going to do I'm going to get that retail store job where my nice suits and every day when I come to work I'll always bring a box of coffee and donuts to my team members and enjoy my part-time position. Because I'm tired working 5 days a week not getting any thanks for it or anything at all out of it it's a dead-end job not quite I can still develop my skills I could say but it's not worth it maybe I'll become a skyrise window cleaner they make good money

Growing up, I was a major outcast and suffered with a lot of severe mental health issues. I had interests that were obsessive and unusual, such as an interest in fire alarms, phone systems, and intercoms. I missed a lot of school due to mental health reasons that required hospitalization and residential treatment. I hardly fit in with anyone at school, and girls especially didn't pay any attention to me. I was also (and still am) short in height at 5'6". I missed a lot of developmental milestones that I reap today.

I was never athletic in school. I was not involved in sports really. I was, however, involved in boy scouts up to age 16 and transitioned into the fire explorer programs.

Socially, I have always struggled. I was hoping adulthood would be better, but it turned out to be worse and a nightmare.

I am 27, almost 28, and I never had a real girlfriend. My absolute biggest regret that kills me to this day is not experiencing young romance. I so wish I was able to form those memories with a girl when I was young who was around my age.

It wasn't until I was around 19 when I had my first kiss with this girl I found repulsive to me. I tried dating her, but it just didn't feel right. She just was not attractive to me.

Also, there was this girl named Izzy that was around 15 when I was 18. Although we cuddled and I kissed her, she became a transgender man and resents me. There is no going back there.

When I was 20, I lost my virginity to another 16 year old girl during a weekend fling. She did not want anything to do with me romantically after that. In fact, I was convicted of stalking because of her (long story).

After that, all I have had is online things with girls where they rejected me upon meeting me in person because I was unattractive to them.

I haven't touched a girl in 7 years. Meanwhile, all my peers and former friends I have known are married and have kids.

I want a woman without a romantic past where we can be each other's first loves.