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Been dating this guy for almost a year, we’re not official and he says he’s not ready yet bc he’s going through a lot of stress in life (about to lose his job, his dad is slowly dying, might have to sell his house to pay the hospital bills, plus he just broke up with his ex a couple of days before we met but we didn’t start dating until a couple of months later).

He’s feeling depressed understandably and he’s pushing me away but at the same time he doesn’t want me to leave. I’m just sitting here confused af on what exactly he wants from me…

He told me he wants to work towards an actual relationship with me but wants to take it slow bc he’s not at his best rn. But not sure if I can get over the things he did and said to me while he was stressed out, he said some hurtful things bc he panicked when I told him we should just be friends

I do love him, he also seems like he loves me (he puts in a lot of effort to show it) but I don't know if I should just walk away for now and just be friends or stick by him and ride the wave out?

For context, we're friends with a lottt of chemistry. Some of my friends ask if we're dating because he's always smiling at me, and the answer has always been no because he said dating in high school is a waste of time when we were first becoming friends. But now we are already around each other so much that it wouldn't change anything. What do I dooooooooo? He's probably going to go find someone prettier and smarter than me bc he's a charmer, but I'm borderline out of his league so maybe he stay if I made a move? He's not even the type to go out of his way to get girls but I don't want to lose him. I don't know, I would literally marry him if he asked. I love him and his family and think they love me and mine aswell. Also, we have the same outlook on life if that matters.