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My ex boyfriend was a liar I found out he lied about his age. I told him how I’m not fine with him following Instagram models wearing skimpy clothing, he didn’t understand how I felt then I told him. ‘So I assume you will be fine if I follow hot guys too’ He told me I couldn’t do that, I told him he better unfollow those women or I will end the relationship. I asked him for his Instagram account he said he’s going to delete Instagram. One week later, I found out he still didn’t delete his Instagram and the people he followed were mostly Instagram models. What a liar. I told my cousin what actually happened with tears in my eyes, she told me most men my age are selfish when it comes to lust. Next time if I want to get another partner I will tell him how him following Instagram models hurts my feelings if he still didn’t care I will say I will be following hot guys if that’s ok with you. He will definitely be insecure af. If he wants to follow Instagram models but is against me following hotter guys than him then he’s selfish just like my ex.

I was an introvert since I was a child. I’m still trying to talk more often but I didn’t like to talk too much it’s just that I find it unnecessary to talk so much. It’s not easy for me to talk to people whom I don’t have a close relationship with. I had a hard time trusting too many people, most of the boys in high school were not boyfriend material. They talked about sleeping with as many girls as possible and they are not interested in getting into a relationship. When one of those jerks approached me and claimed he had feelings for me, I rejected him in a very harsh manner assuming he only want me is because he wants to sleep with me. I was right he wasn’t the type of guy who wants a serious relationship, it’s only the sex. That’s how he and his group of friends hated me for being ruthlessly harsh but that’s my personality. I can be vicious and heartless in my speech when I knew a guy want me because of sex and nothing else. I was still the same when I found out my ex used me for sex, in the end he hated me because I didn’t gave him a good time. Do I feel guilty for being harsh to my ex? Not in the slightest.