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Valentine's day is coming up, and I know I'm going to be alone, just as I've been every single year. I haven't ever been on a date, I've tried lately, but only to get stood up 4, yes, FOUR times in the past month, twice in one night. The fact that they didn't come made me angry with them for being selfish, and frustrated me because I imagined it going well. I still had fun alone, which is what mattered most to me. What's hurt me the most on Valentine's day is how much it puts me down to see everyone in love, and nobody wants me on a romantic level. So, it's been tempting for me to hire an escort. I fully acknowledge that what they'd be giving me isn't real love, but it could be the most powerful suppressor to all the pain I feel on Valentine's day to be with someone and do romantic things with them as well. It's also appealing for me to know that they aren't going to reject me, and they likely won't just kick me out if I say one awkward thing while I'm with them. How do I resist temptation?