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I was stood outside talking to my male colleague. We were finished for the day and we work in the same office. We were stood by our cars and were having a good laugh and chat. Once, we were sitting together for breakfast at work and my crush gave me a small smile and looked away quickly, whereas normally he would gaze, smile warmly and hold eye contact.

We park by the exit. So basically, at our work there is a one way system you drive through at no more than 10mph. There are various car parks branching off this one way system.

My crush was driving towards me and my colleague and he beeped his horn. He was a fair distance away, like a couple of metres. I looked up and him and gestured to myself. He shook his head and then waved at me. When he got closer to us, I asked him if he was beeping at me. He stopped the car, despite another car being behind him. He was grinning and laughing, saying it was an accident. I could see that his seat was very far back. My male colleague made a joke and my crush briefly glanced at him but stayed staring at me.

An hour or so after this, my crush finally opened and reacted to the reel I sent him a few days prior. I think the timing isn’t coincidental, he opened it shortly after seeing me with my male colleague.

Then a few days after this, I was chatting with my crush and the colleague came into conversation. I said “you know, the one I was chatting to in the car park”

My crush immediately said “oh, where I beeped my horn by accident? That was so embarrassing, I was grabbing my bag” etc etc. and he was grinning but avoiding eye contact. Which to me, confirms that it was on purpose.

My bestie and I had this discussion and this is what I said-

For me, it would depend on how far along I am. If it's only been a couple of months, I would terminate the pregnancy, but if I am about to have the baby then I would give up my life to save the child.