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To me, the idea of eating with others is far more foreign than eating alone could ever be to most people, or at least that's the vibe I'm getting.

As a kid, my father got home 2-3 hours before my mother did, leaving my brother and I to eat with my dad. My father provided for me, but that's all he did, he never helped raise me, teach me, all he did was insult, threaten and scold me and my mother at every opportunity.

My brother was the son he wanted and I'm the one he wishes he didn't have, that's how he's made me feel every day since I was born.

For this reason, I started taking food to my room to stay away from him. In school, the noise and frequent rejection from others pushed me to find a teacher willing to let me and a few others eat in a room away from the cafeteria. Even then, I never went to talk, I went because I didn't like my classmates and didn't like being around them.

I never felt welcome or belonging, only 2 people ever made me feel anything but unwanted. For all these reasons, eating alone was pretty much the only way to eat.

It has been 16 years since I sat at a table with just my parents and brother, and I will never eat with my father alone, and I'm sorry to say that I really do mean that.

In high school, I ate at the table closest to the door, I ate fast, usually just a couple minutes. I didn't talk to anyone, I just ate, took my enzymes and went to the courtyard to throw the football. I'd accepted that aside from throwing a football outside, me and others just weren't ever going to have any kind of relationship, discussion, we were never going to spend time together, so I kept to myself, and frankly, I was as annoyed with their presence as they were with mine. So the hatred was very mutual

As you've noticed, I've been more open but still, I have no shortage of hesitation to change eating from a necessary refueling of the body to a social environment.

But I'll get there. Is eating a social event for you?

Society in the last 150 years has changed into a do as you want with no gilt or shame. A term called grace of no matter what you do started to be looked at as the new way.

Even with the 3 main religions scriptures saying that is not the case, in fact in the Christian and Jewish faith the two scriptures say the exact opposite. That you are not free to do as you want without being punished by the higher power of the religion. But society has made a new tradition and passed down it as truth.

But why dose it say that in the scriptures of the two... to treat all with respect and acceptance, do not judge (only to judge on what the person shows and tells you themself), treat everyones problems as your own? Because we as humans are dependent on being part of society and the best way to maintain a positive healthy society is for all to accept and help each other.

But now society has become so selfish and judgmental that religion has became a business catering to it. It is also a fact that being real nice is now looked as not normal. What society wants is the freedom to do as one wishes without any negative effects. Now Christian's if you are thinking this is not true. It is in the new testament of your Bible from the first followers (no follower sins, only a child of the devil sins) and the first teacher who is called the son of God said (only the ones who do what the father wants = (what he said to do, how to live like, in the old testament) will go in heaven. This means if you judge someone buy society label you are going against your own god. With religion changing into what society wants comes danger. Because someone with the believe in there heart, mind and soul, that no matter what they do they will have the grace of their god. Has no limit to the devastation they can cause other people. So if their mind breaks from not being accepted and rejected by society because society dose not follow what is written. You end up with what happened in Tumbler Ridge BC

Just want to know how the internet has changed since i left my teens. Are you comfortable sharing you phone number with someone even if its just a few seasonal greetings... a yes or no.