My best friends and parents keep saying my guy friend is in love with me and I should give him a chance, why can’t I stop thinking about him?

Now I’ve always dreamed of having a tall, good looking guy and marry him or at least a guy I can share my life with. I NEVER get the guys I want but the guys that want me, I DONT WANT THEM. I was a fat tall teenager and now I’m a chubby woman that’s losing weight.

Anyways ever since we were teenagers my friends and teachers kept saying my guy friend likes me but I didn’t believe it. No way.

After a lot of crummy exes and dates sucked, I have up. I get rejected and guys won’t snag me but my friends have lovely boyfriends. I am still single!

Now, I feel like everytime his name is mentioned, I get this feeling in my stomach and feeling weak. I don’t understand why I keep thinking about him lately and sent me a valentine card saying to the most beautiful girl. Sent a dozen flowers to me and a poem he wrote. That was sweet. I don’t know why my heart melted. He doesn’t drive. His mom helped him send them. He even send a voiceover singing a love song to me.

My ex boyfriends (most neurotypical, one neurodivergent) never did that for me! I keep fighting that I only like him as a friend. I keep saying stop thinking about your friend and think about your crush from college. Love songs come on and my guy friend pops up!

My best friend told me, “Ah ha! I KNEW IT! You DO like like! Admit! I think you’re falling in love with him.”
That is impossible! I can’t like my guy friend! I like my crush!
She said forget my crush and I should give my guy friend a chance. Even my parents said I should consider it. We’re both autistic.

Now all of a different he told me he dreamed of being a father but he doesn’t even care for kids. He said, “things change.
My best friend said since I am good with kids and I work with him, he is working on himself, maturing and developing to love kids. He’s doing that to impress me. Ugh!

My best friends and parents keep saying my guy friend is in love with me and I should give him a chance, why can’t I stop thinking about him?
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