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I’m turning 25 in few months & been having baby fever. I get jelaous seeing girls with baby happy. I can’t stop thinking of babies. I’m not ready this year have baby but maybe mid to end next year be pregnant and have baby born by age 26 . I’m 26 end next year. I’m not financially stable rn, my business has no sales at moment, I’m barley trying get savings, have $200 saved rn and want $5,000 saved by December. Then next year save even more so I can use it for my baby buy everything he or she will need. I’ve been feeling depressed empty in life I live alone, I’ve been feeling like a loser as I have no special baby of my own. I see women pregnant or with guy and baby and I wonder what makes them deserve a baby? What makes them deserve get pregnant by a guy and I don’t deserve get Pregnant by a guy? Like how is the women so special n amazing to be able get huge belly n have so much sex so many times with boyfriend to get baby. Why im not worthy have this too? Im not a party girl, I want move to a big condo apartment , and raise my baby there in our blissful home. I feel my purpose is have baby not just be stupid women living alone empty working that’s it. My life is to have my own family 😔& true happiness with my own new family.

I created a dating profile 3 weeks ago to get some confidence since I was going through an insecure time, wasn’t really looking for anyone. Some men messaged me, but one guy stood out. He gave off this “I come as is” vibe which struck a cord with me for some reason so I exchanged socials with him to remain contact and deleted the app. Time continues and we’re talking every day, and things are going great.

He disclosed that he had to join the army right out of high school since he had gotten his then-girlfriend pregnant and now has a baby girl. He just started working a full time job and plans to go to a community college to earn his degree whereas I’m in graduate school with no kids. I understood him and we continued to grow from there. Then, the other night, I told him to visit me (we live 2 hours away from each other, and I requested that we meet in the middle so drive isn’t too bad).

He disclosed he didn’t have a paycheck from his job yet but would only need about $40 for gas. I paid for his gas, food, and toy for his dog while we hanged out the following day. He then asked me what particular app we met on since he had over 5 that has been used for over a month. He stated that girls would talk for a couple of days then leave, but I never left so he deleted them all (or he claims). He had a very neutral decision on sex like “if you want it, sure. If not, it’s fine.” But we ended up having sex anyway because I was very smitten with him at that time.

I asked if we were together as boyfriend/girlfriend since the first date went great and he said he likes me but not ready for that yet since he wants to know me more (even though I told him I’m an open-book) and wants to go on more dates. I agreed since I didn’t really have a choice and now after a day has passed, he isn’t really talking to me much and doesn’t seem interested anymore like leaving me on read. I’m not sure what to do because I spent over $100 on the date and was hoping he’d help pay some of that back.