Here is my major weakness... Its name is S...
- 8 years ago, I met a guy online who I found UTTERLY attractive.
After a lot of relationships that were total failures ( been cheated on several times ), I decided I would give up on my virginity to this amazingly hot guy, which I'm NOW, not proud of. He was honest about the fact he wanted nothing serious ( with me )
The day after, he called me saying he had a really good time and he would never forget it. We actually spoke for about 5 hours and did it after, I knew he found me hot. Then, we argued for what reason, I don't remember on the phone.
I then blocked him on social media as I thought he would do it himself, and I didn't want to appear as needy. After a few weeks, I unblocked him and he texted me 6 months after.
- For 4 years, I tried to see him in real life because we would only speak on the phone : about religion and politics, then we would speak about sex. I knew for sure he wasn't in a relationship, so I didn't understand the reason why he didn't want to see me again... ( even just for sex)
At that time, sometimes I met boys but it never worked...
I was fed up with waiting for him... Then, I met a wonderful man who is now my amazing husband and I love him.
I told S... I was in a relationship and I would probably get married, so I would like to stay friends, nothing more. He sent me a text message though Viber, deleted this message, so I could not see it, and blocked my phone number...
- 2 years ago, I contacted him through Skype, I was pregnant, felt lonely with no support, no flirting, no cheating !!! I wanted Friendship. Everything was cool.
He ended up swearing at me criticizing my huband two weeks ago. I didn't reply. So I blocked him and deleted Skype forever I think.
But, I'm suffering...
Why do I still need him in my life? I Will never tell him, but he is an important person to me. I will never ever cheat on my man.
What do you think about this story?
Don't judge me please.