Search Results: she was raised not to show her love

Hey I should probably start off by describing myself a bit. I‘m a 19 years old girl from Europe. I‘m about 5'4" tall, have dark eyes, long darkbrown hair and pale skin. I would say I look pretty average but I always try to put effort in the way I look to look presentable for my family and boyfriend. My family raised me pretty strictly because in our family good manners and education are very important.

Now to the problem:
When it comes to emotions people describe me as cold. I would love to say that this is not true but often enough i find myself avoiding to get emotionally involved with anyone because I was disappointed so many times before. This also includes my boyfriend. I absolutely love him but I can‘t feel it. I often try to show him how much I love him but I feel like I always fail because of my general behaviour around him.

When we go for a walk for example I absolutely hate holding hands or when he puts his arm around me. I prefer linking arm or keeping them to ourselves. I also don‘t like kissing in public or any sort of PDA like cuddling when we wait for something. When I see couples that do things like that it seems repellent to me.

My boyfriend sometimes hints that he doesn‘t understand my behaviour but I don‘t know how to talk to him about it because I am scared to hurt him.

I really love the 80s. The TV shows were good, the games are good, and the fashion and crazy hairstyles are good, the old fashioned items are good. Kids from this generation could argee with this. It makes me sad thinking why I wasn't born in the 80s. 😂😂

P. s
If you were born or raised in the 80s, do you remember these? Memories, huh?😔

I am 19 years old and i dress modestly (show no skin at all wheather it be arms, legs ect) when i was three, burning water fell on my left leg leaving 3rd degree scars on my top middle part of my inner thigh starting just above my knee to where girl shorts end on a thigh. the backside of the bottomhalf of leg is also has burnt scars all over it and the outerside of ankle to (only one side of my ankle the outer part is scarred). This is only ons leg. My other leg is completely scar free along with the rest of my body. The scars are a bit raised and the color blends with my natural skin color (brown skin, brown scars) i want the honest truth, don't sugar coat don't feel bad for me. I want the realistic truth please, so I can make a decision. I don't want to live on a lie or fairy tail but work with what I got. If a man wants to marry me but then I tell him I have 3rd degree scars as I have told you or described will he then take back his proposal. What do guys think of girls with burn scars on one leg. Would they ever be attracted to them. Everyone tells me I am beautiful, those I know and strangers. A lot of men have crushes on me. But these people besides my family do not know i have burn scars as i wear long clothing covering my leg (maxi dress, maxi skirt, jeans ect) if a guy find out will he be no longer attracted to me? Like what if we haven't known each other personally yet but he liked my apperence thought I was pretty then I told him i have a burn scar on my left leg? What would most guys do. Please give me the honest truth do not try to make me feel better because honestly it would end up hurting me. Would a guy mind? How important is it? If a man proprosed to me should i tell them about my scars before we get married or does it not matter. Or will a guy who knows me personally and is already in love with me will be the only one who would except my scars. Can a guy fall in love with a girl with burnt scars on 1 leg from childhood? Keep it 100.