How could someone so proactive in youth fail so miserably?

[IHaveRespawned]

I was a Boy Scout in my youth. I worked at summer camp. I volunteered at my middle school once I moved onto high school as a "safety patrol" person, sporting on an orange vest and monitoring the hallways and directing traffic after school let out. I was given the exception to do this, despite this role being for adults only at that time. My former principal then wrote me an amazing recommendation letter. I was a fire explorer in high school.

Then, after graduating high school, everything went to hell. I began to panic when I graduated high school never even kissed a girl. I became desperate and eventually got into trouble for stalking. I lost my EMT license and my livelihood.

[Ez-Bri-Z_v2]

You made terrible decisions as an adult basically that led to all that. If you had exhibited any self control you probably would have been able to get the jobs you wanted, but seriously that one event is going to follow you for life and it should all things considered. If you have done it once you are more than capable of doing it again and employers don't want the trouble.

[Dongie]

The world. Shit spins on a dime. Both directions. Be ready for the comeback.

[missindiana93]

Why did you stalk then?

[IHaveRespawned]

I was desperate to love and be loved. I never threatened violence or even layed a hand on her in a violent way. I brought her a gift 7 months after she said she didn't want to speak to me again, and her daddy unleashed a reign of terror on me.

[missindiana93]

Sounds terrible.

[IHaveRespawned]

You have no idea. I struggled from thereon forward. I had terrible legal representation. I was persuaded to plead no-contest, not fully knowing the consequences of doing so.

[missindiana93]

So where does that lead you now?

[IHaveRespawned]

So as it stands today, I am unemployed and engaged to be married. I collect social security disability at the moment, but I am wanting to pursue a career again in the near future. I was denied a part-time time security guard role recently due to my previous convictions. I worked on tech for 4 years, but I lost my last role July of last year. As stated, my EMT license was essentially revoked, so I cannot go back into that or likely any healthcare/public safety role for that matter. I feel like I am having to settle for truck driving now to make a middle-class income.

[missindiana93]

Well that dosen't sound to terrible. :) keep your head up.

[seeyounexttuesday]

So now it's time to get your shit together.

[IHaveRespawned]

Believe me, I am trying. I have some many restrictions on career choices right now