Starting a new chapter?

Anonymous
I feel kinda pathetic but I’m trying to heal from a somewhat abusive relationship. I feel like it should be easier. Basically things were good, but I noticed red flags and I immediately stopped it. He Started screaming at me if I wanted to spend more time, called me names, would choose his friends over seeing me during the week, stopped calling as much, and just felt off. So I kept trying to leave, but he kept trying to see me. Then I didn’t call one night, and he said he couldn’t see or call me until I called him. I understand he wanted a call but isn’t this crazy controlling? I’ve stayed up nights calling him wen he was sleeping but I don’t understand how if you love someone you throw away time and communication. Why wouldn’t you just leave? So I just felt like it was wrong to throw away that over a phone call. He went from saying how much he loved calling to barely calling and saying I needed to call more. Which I can understand maybe he didn’t feel important but why not call me and discuss it on the phone he honestly never seemed to care about calling before. And i feel like if u want to talk so much he’d call. So I stood up for myself and I feel guilty but isn’t that kind of harsh? I don't know what do you think? Like how do you heal from abuse? And when I am ready to start dating again, how many dates should I go on to give a guy a chance? Like I get bored of people so easily but I’ve met some really hot nice guys, how many chances should I give a guy? Thanks!
Starting a new chapter?
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