Am I crazy? Why am I still not over my ex?

[throwmeaway1111]

My ex and I dated for about 3 years, and we were talking about getting married and all. I broke up with him after he was being insensitive to me after having a miscarriage. Fast forward to about 7 months later, we had gotten back in contact and decided to be friends before pursuing anything further. He told me that he had met some girl and was interested in her but still hung out with me a couple times and even slept with me once before we got into an argument and haven't really spoken since. This was last May. During the argument, he genuinely looked hurt by some of the things I said even though I didn't mean most of it, I was just very frustrated. I haven't really tried reaching out, just told him that I missed him back in October but he didn't respond. He never blocked my number though and still has me added on steam and discord. (which I know he didn't forget about since it tells you when others are online)

[Summeroflove]

You’re not crazy you just never completely grieved. Many people still have attachments secretly to former lovers. The miscarriage thing makes sense too that’s very emotional and hard that may have built some sort of trauma bond especially that you carried a part of him inside of you that died. Maybe it’s some weird way of feeling closer to your child.

Allow yourself to grieve and if you need professional help get some. But none of what you say is crazy it makes perfect sense to me.

[Anonymous]

Not like this you are doing it the wrong way. You don’t try to be over someone/something , rather learn to live with it and accept it that past is past for a reason. The deeper you try to shove and suppress the feel the more it would surface and haunt you. Just feel the hurt, learn to live with it so that healing could begin. (life goes on)

[itsannalee]

Some people need more time