He made me cheat on my boyfriend, now what does he want?

i have been in a exclusive relationship with a guy I love for 3 years, and Haven't cheated til now recently. and I feel so so horrible about it. I feel like the worst most rotten person ever. to make matters worse, my boyfriend is madly in love with me and he loves me more that anything in the world.

when I started having contact with this other guy jake, I had been feeling very insecure for a long time, because though I am a pretty attractive girl I need lots of reassurance, and its not enough for me to get it from one guy over time apparently. then I met jake and to shorten the story we started talking to each other on the phone several times a day. and he would ask a lot of questions about my relationship with my boyfriend Fred. he would dig for problems and negatives and soon he started saying things like "you deserve much better, " you cane have anyone you want", "Fred is obsessive and too jealous" etc. he started off saying he respected the fact that I had a boyfriend but kept asking me to meet up with him. after a while I did meet him at his place and we had sex. we have been having sex on 7 - 8 events now and hanging out.

he keeps asking me to come over every single day and calls me several times every day. when I tell him I can't see him because I am meeting up with my boyfriend fred, jake seens bothered and asks "what are you gonna be with him for?" etc.

jake seems to be very much of a playboy, and he has told me he thinks all guys cheat, and that he could never be in a monogamous relationship. but now suddenly he has been trying to convince me I didn't mean those things and bla bla. and when I laugh and say "I could NEVER be in a serious relationship with a guy like you" he seems offended.

what the hell does he want? is he getting feelings for me and is too afraid to say it cus a have a boyfriend already, or does he just want me to fall for him and leave my boyfriend (which he keeps nagging me to do all the time!), so that he has succeeded at "playing me" and get what ever ego boost guys like that get from that?

sorry for long and complicated story. jake is in his early 20's so I think he is to old for this "player" bullsh*t if you ask me, but you never know. he has given me signs in the beginning that he is that kind of guy.

PS. I know that I am a cold-hearted skanky bitch for cheating om my boyfriend and I know I don't deserve him at all. so please you don't need to tell me, and please just answer my questions! thanks!
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I called jake last night and told him we have to stop now and we will no longer hook up. Then he reacted by saying he respect that. And he thpugh all th feel guilty he dis was great for both him and me, but if I doesn't want to keep going either. He asked me if we could still be frienfs and talk daily on the phone just like we jave the past months. And he still want to meet me ad NOT have sex... WHY is he saying this? Is it just a trick to make me change my mind and want to have sex with him?
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Jake asked me to be his date on this huge formal event. Wtf is that about?
He made me cheat on my boyfriend, now what does he want?
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