I feel jealous and uncomfortable when my boyfriend goes to parties without me?

Anonymous
We have been together for going on 3 years, we are currently long distance until the end of summer, my boyfriend was going through a rough patch drinking a lot and doing some drugs (not extremely hard drugs) during that time he cheated and I decided to forgive him, I believe in second chances and i truly think he won't do it again.
my issue is the idea of him going to parties without me is gut wrenching, although i forgave him it is still taking me time to fully gain back trust and its hard when he is out getting drunk and not messaging me until he gets home at 6am.

im not looking for any “leave him” answers because i have zero plans to do so, our relationship is going amazing since what happened & the only issue i have is that partying.
does anyone have tips on how to deal with this feeling or what i could say to him so he understands how i feel?
sometimes i feel foolish when talking about my insecurities.
I feel jealous and uncomfortable when my boyfriend goes to parties without me?
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