Is it weird that I never have a crush?

like litteraly i had my last crush with 9 since then i never really liked a girl after seeing a bit of her personality i sometimes feel intrestet in new girls i meet but thats it (ofc there are girls i find hot too) i never have this feeling of wanting to be with a certian person i mean i dont know someone else with this problem and slowly but surely it drives me into a light depression or better siad a big sad cuz i dont even want a girl to like me back i just want to genuenly care for someone again and have this nervous feeling everytime i talk with that person
Is it weird that I never have a crush?
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