Starting to feel distant, am I wrong?

Anonymous
I am 19, and my boyfriend is 29. We have been dating for 2 1/2 years and lived together for 2 years. This first year he went out every other day and drank and I stayed home. He used to take 50% of my money because he “worked” for me. (He doesn’t anymore) he was really mean to me the first part of our relationship but I stuck with it. I resent myself for not leaving then and resent him for what he did. He started to cool down because he’s broke. I made him get his own job and he make 2k a month. I have always paid the bills and majority of everything. I have to give him running money a lot because he’s broke after paying his bills. He’s sweet to me now but I’m just not attracted to being with him anymore or at least right now. I feel like we rushed things and he never wants to take me out in a date because it is not fun with just him drinking (his words) he says he’s waiting until I’m 21 to hangout and take me out seriously all the time. I’m just not into anymore. I wish I had my own space. I have to cry to him about washing dishes or giving me money to help. He thinks we are both happy but I’m so mentally drained.
Starting to feel distant, am I wrong?
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