I feel so out of place sometimes?

[Anonymous]

Like I'm being myself but also feel like there a locked door inside myself that I can't open, like I've suppressed something or so much feeling that I couldn't express for years that it's locked in a box inside 10 other boxes with chains that I can't open.

Does this make sense? I can't even cry properly like ugly cry because something keeps holding me back, I can do a few years but not a full on cry to have then release.

Any help to try opening that inner part of me that I can't seem to do?

[Anonymous]

It is only through deep reflection and analysis of our pasts, negative thought patterns, relationships with others, aspirations and goals, that we can begin to tease out what isn’t working. There’s a book called Hands of Light by Barbara Ann Brennan that talks about different energetic blocks in our aura and childhood traumas that lead to future issues such as those you are experiencing. Some of the chapters might be useful to you.

[Opinion Owner]

The key is to determine what your root fear is and what the paradox is that you tell yourself subconsciously which is what is holding yourself back. Is it, for example, that deep down you feel you must be strong and stoic to be a man but to feel human you also feel you need to express your emotions, so you live in constant inner combat because you can’t have both?

[Opinion Owner]

In such a case, the key would be doing a root cause analysis of the source of that fear, where it came from and why and how it’s affecting your everyday life, and then taking steps to eliminate it.