Hey I don't even know where to start .
So as I was reading your post I could feel it and I could feel your heart through your words I can tell your stomach through your words.
Then I read it again and one more time
And I scroll down to see what kind of a person you were to see if you had any more questions and then I read all your questions it's all about this guy.
It's about your life it's about your school basically about your livelihood through your school work because you need to have a job no matter what happens and you are so holding yourself up...
Okay so let me ask you first of all this is the guy even like you does he like you if the answers yes then you need to talk to him
One time say what you have to say and then let it go
If the answer is no
Then you have to accept it you have to acknowledge it and you have to say it's okay because there's 5 billion trillion other guys out there that will love me the way I want to be loved
Let me try to explain something to you so you first start dating two weeks prior your life was happier just doing whatever you're doing nothing big going on just your content living life
And in a moment this guy walks into your life and yes you to go out
Everything is brand new to you everything is exciting and fresh and you're feeling emotions because you're starting a new life because everything is different now
And you start going out on dates and you start doing things together and you think to yourself man this guy is great we went to the park we went to the movies we went to dinner and you're saying I love this he's making me so happy
And what you have to understand is your life went from this over here to this over here with him
And what you have to realize is this over here with him is all brand new you might have been living a boring life before and all of a sudden everything is just cool badass you're happier than happy why because it's all brand new to you it's something different than what you were doing before
And this guy came into your life and you went and did things that made you happy what you have to understand is he came into your life and took you someplace that's all he did he opened that door to something new for you with everything that you guys have done all he did is took you there and open the door with inside of you do something new and exciting and
All that love and all that happiness that you felt it didn't come from him it came from you you are the only person on the inside of you that can make you happy or sad no matter what I don't care what it is that you do or do with somebody they can't make you feel that only you can make you feel that they open the door for a new experience for New Life A new challenge that's all they did you are the person that made yourself happy understand all the reasons behind why you were so happy why you made yourself happy at that moment because it was all new it was not him you have to understand that
I could come pick you up right now we could go do something anything you wanted to do and by the end of night you would be happy you'd be happy that I came over to pick you up and we wouldn't experiences together but I didn't make you happy you made yourself happy I open up the door for new experience and for you to make yourself happy that's all that is going on here it has nothing to do with that guy
It around about where you're using him to not be motivated you're using him to you think fell in life fell at your schooling he's not doing anything he's over where he's at you're the only person on the inside of you that can control that you're the only person on the inside of you that could make you do anything
Love is a very powerful thing love yourself open that door for yourself and be happy about it take it on make it a challenge you don't need somebody in your life to make you happy because the only person on the inside of you is you and you are the only person on the inside of you that can do this
I don't know if I'm saying it right I hope that I am with all your questions that I read this is what I come up with
Because then your next question after this one is how come I want kids so bad why because so they can come into your life and open up the new door for you so you can be happy so you can feel that happiness again so you can give them happiness but all you can do is open the door for them they will feel the happiness if that's who you become because if you're depressed and if you're not understanding what I'm saying then you're going to raise kids they don't get love the right love the right knowledge you're going to get an angry parent who probably becomes mean and instead of communicating to them bitches barks and bites
Go out for a walk walk fast get your blood rushing get your lungs breathing get the oxygen and blood flowing through your veins do something strenuous for at least 30 minutes clear your mind do this for a week straight do it for 30 days straight it will change your life it will clear all the cobwebs out of your head you will start to feel happiness because you will start believing in yourself because you're doing something for yourself you will see what I mean you will open your own door on doing something different something is not really exciting I'm laughing my ass off right now because it's not exciting but it's different and you will see what I mean about he didn't make you happy you made yourself happy it's great to be around friends it's great to be around lovers and boyfriends and girlfriends but they're in the moment with you you're happy that you're with them you're happy that you're having fun with them.
And you're happy that you got to share that moment with them but it was you that created that own happiness inside of you because you either did something to make them happy and pleased and vice versa because they were with you you were together you were one become one with yourself if you're really serious and you want to change your life just walk 30 minutes a day for 30 days at a fast pace get your blood growing rushing clear the crap out of your brain get all the toxins out of your blood clean detox it by cleaning it by making it brush making it go faster through your veins you'll see what I mean you're like a car a car is happiest when it has clean oil when it's breathing fresh air when it can give you a ride and make it to the places you want to go it's happy here's the same way if you need to talk DM me I can try to help you
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Make a pro and con list. I’m sure you con/hate list will win out. Also then take the pro list and turn most of those into cons. Find a nicer guy.
Its gonna take time no one can help you.. It could take a year or more to get over it depending on how long you were together or liked him...
You are inlove. Why dont you tell him how you feel?
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