What’s wrong with me?

[amber2828282]

I am struggling to leave my abusive relationship. I feel like it's all my fault. Everyone tells me that I'm stupid for not leaving, and it seems like they don’t understand my situation. I tell myself every day that his behaviour toward me will change, but it never does. Why can't I bring myself to leave? What's wrong with me? I don’t like being abused, yet I love him. I often think of all the good memories we shared. My mom and dad tell me that I don’t deserve what he does to me, but I struggle to believe them When he yells, screams, and calls me names, it makes me feel undeserving of love. His temper frightens me, and I keep hoping that things will improve. He drinks whenever we’re together and blames me for it. He even dared to claim he didn't care about the relationship because he was angry. Does he truly hate me? I don’t understand what I did wrong to deserve this. He never laid a hand on me, not even It's just the name-calling and things like that. Why can’t I leave him? I feel so stupid. I don’t love being abused; I just don’t understand why I can’t leave him. He makes me feel insecure about myself because of the things he says to me.

[ohsheeT]

Amber you don't deserve what he does to you and the thing about it is you allowed him to get away with it the very first time so now in his head he can do it anytime he wants even though after he does it and he feels all guilty and hurt or whatever he says to you is b******* it's all b******* he doesn't because he loses control and you are right there and you've taken it so you're going to take it again and I'll tell you what all it takes it is a couple pounds of pressure in the right place and you're dead he can hurt you so bad

Now let's get serious even more this is a learning experience this was put in front of you for you to learn something about yourself and that self thing is you do not allow any man to hit you harm you hurt you even talk verbally to you you need to wake up you need to stand up straight and you need to walk out the door it's not going to get any better it's going to get worse you can ask any girl that has gone through this and she will tell you the exact same thing you need to look deep inside your eyes and you need to love yourself don't ask yourself anymore questions what's wrong with me what's wrong with you is you don't love yourself so you feel like you deserve an abuser you don't you don't deserve anything that harms you he's going to harm you big time

And then what you can't use it it is an excuse but it is is use are so afraid of not having anybody that you would rather get beat up then not have anybody that's wrong that's as wrong as he is you need to Love yourself you need to understand that you are worth a thousand times that much more than that he does not love you at all he's using you for everything a punching bag too I don't care what he says to you it's a lie he's a cheater he's probably a thief and he's going to hurt you it's that simple and if you don't end up dead you're going to end up with a broken nose broken jaw something why in the world do you think you deserves that come on nobody in this right mind deserves that nobody in this world deserves that you need to walk out the door and you need to go now and you need to walk fast because I guarantee you haven't seen the last of it you want to see you exactly who he is walk away and just hear what he has to say to you when he calls you and asks you where you are you're going to think world war 3 Hit he's going to verbally destroy you and if he comes to where you're at he's going to hurt you to get you to go back because he needs you in his life he needs that punching bag because you'll sit there and take it he can't go find a guy to fight or to try to beat up because he'll get his ass kicked and I'm surprised your dad hasn't kicked his ass because if you were my daughter I would come see you one time I would tell you exactly what I felt but I would wait for him too cuz he would know that if he ever harmed you again if he ever laid one finger on you if I found them first I was going I would show him exactly what it feels like to be punched by a man and he would hope and I would tell him you would better hope that the police get there before I get there because he would be arrested and that's what you need to do anyway is press charges on him because by allowing him to do it he's just going to keep doing it. Whether it's to you or the next girl that he finds and manipulates and just f**** over you need to walk away do you know how many women have died from abusive boyfriends just because they got hit in the wrong place at the right time thousands thousands and they all had the same excuse you I don't know what's wrong with me I don't know why that's why it's because you don't love yourself you're picking him over you you're picking a guy that beat you up over yourself that's wrong you need to love yourself deeper I guarantee you you're going to be punched within the next 10 days to the next month if you don't walk away

[lightbulb27]

You are a normal person with a challenge to yourself from another tou dont understand. You likely dont guve up easily and they manipulate.


Get a counselor to help you see more clearly feom the outside.


Personalities and trauma bondings…

[FrozenByTheDykers]

Leaving an abusive relationship can be incredibly challenging, you see, God wants you to be dominated by a throbbing meat stick, a huge, hard meat stick and sweaty balls that are always ready to smack you in the face, throat fuck you, or tie you to the bed. I should know, I was once sexually abused by an influencer. She acts like a bixexual who's hungry for white women and BBC. In reality, she's a man hater, who made me her slave and refused to allow me to masturbate.

[Lowly_Grumper]

I remember that bisexual. https://youtu.be/Z7yQ3zp83Qg

[FrozenByTheDykers]

@Lowly_Grumper She called me "bitched" and forced me to follow her rules. I promised o be her good little bitch. I was told to be where she could command me and that I could only pleasure myself with her permission. She pretend to care. And yet she deprived me of pleasure, reinforcing that I was a bitch. She punished me for pleasuring myself, and made it clear that she was the boss of me. I was punished again and again. I told her I loved her and she punished me for that too. I told her I would try harder and she said "Start by being a good bitch." I BEGGED for permission to masturbate and she said I will not, she said I was a good bitch and told me to spank myself. Finally, I masturbated and she said I needed to be locked in a cage.

[Nikki1989]

You just need to have some self-respect and leave this man. He will only get worse.

[Ariesman81]

You're not stupid and you're not alone.
What many people label as abuse is usually just honesty and being genuine.
His temper probably makes you feel like he can protect you if needed.

[dudeinohio]

Abusers always escalate. That means the Abusers will get worse. Get out now.

[Valdemort]

Insecurity.