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15 d

How much does my boyfriend actually love me?

I wanted to cuddle with him one last time before I left his house since it would be another long week before we see each other again. He cuddled me for about 15 mins before he got up to use the bathroom. Then when he came back, he didn't want to cuddle anymore, claiming that "he cuddled me already". My hip was hurting so I told him to put his hand on my hip to relieve some of the pain. He did it for 5 mins before he took his hands off my back so that he could scroll useless Instagram videos on his phone. I was sad because I really needed a hug since I was going through a hard time in life. It also reminded me of a guy I dated (10 years ago), who refused to use his phone in my presence because he said every second of the date was time for him to focus entirely on me. I almost cried missing him so much.

A few weeks ago, I was cleaning my boyfriend's bathroom. Before we got into bed to cuddle, I asked him if he could wash his hands and forearms with soap since he had been doing a lot of dirty work around the house. He got annoyed with me, went over to the sink to angrily wash his hands, grumbling: "I have a job where I do A LOT of dirty work... you have no idea how dirty my arms usually are." I was sorry I annoyed him. But deep down, I have a feeling that if he loved me more, he wouldn't mind washing his hands for me. It just seems my comfort doesn't matter to him.

A month ago, I was trying to flee my abusive family so I begged if I could move in with him. He had talked about it for a long time. But he said "no. it's too early for you to move in. because there are still some issues I would like to resolve in our relationship before you move in". 1 month later, now he wants a babysitter for his cat so he is offering me the key to his place and claiming that I could stay as long as I wanted. I just feel wronged so I didn't accept it. He only let me in because he wanted me to babysit his cat

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15 d
Despite this, he has taken me out on dates at resturant where he has paid for my food. When I was having money troubles, he also paid for my bus ticket home. Telling me that I don't have to worry about money. He has cooked us both great dinners. But beyond that, he has not done much else to make me feel special. Asking him to wash his hands is too big of an issue. Overall, I just question how much he actually loves me.
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15 d
I have been giving him massages, cleaning his home, helping him with laundry. Just feel like I'm giving way more effort and receiving less in return.
How much does my boyfriend actually love me?
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