I just got posted to an organization. In my country it's necessary to serve with an organization for a year after university.
I was posted to a media house. I studied french in school so i was posted to the french department.
In school, I hated french. Because of this, I didn't put my head down to learn. I also battled with depression and anxiety.
At the office today, they ran tests to see if I was capable and obviously I was not. I felt embarrassed and really sad.
I felt very little.
Then I made a decision. I asked to be posted to the media/operations department... news, presentations and stuff because I already work in the media industry as a side hustle and I've always loved it. I was supposed to study something media related but because of parental intrusion, I ended up studying what I did.
My request was granted, I was asked to come back to settle the change in a few days and the supervisor assured me that others had done this before... changed departments.
It was like he knew how I was feeling.
Now, I don't know how I'd tell everyone I won't be working in the french department. That's all they've been talking about. I also feel like a coward for backing out. I just didn't want to slip into depression again like I did in school. I even got anxiety symptoms immediately they started giving me tests. I feel so bad and guilty that I've also wasted my parents efforts.
What do you think?
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You got in, though. If your parents spread news before it was ready, that's on them.
Besides, you'll be more successful doing work you enjoy.
Sometimes parents' expectations are really out of touch. And many times they don't believe in mental illness like depression or anxiety. Make sure you work with your doctor to get a handle on those. Meds and therapy really help.
Focus on the positive: now you can proudly say you're working in the media and communications field, doing something you enjoy.
People will learn the truth and if your parents are salty, that's for them to work through.
Focus on your success. Celebrate! Congratulations on your placement!
You shouldn't feel like that ur not a failure so don't think
Listen you are far away from failure
Life is so much better if you plainly cumminate like you did